Still Not Normal
Alternative / Indie Singer-Songwriter + Dubstep, British UK vocals emotional combined with heavy dubstep drops, Raw, vulnerable verses build to explosive, cathartic dubstep choruses Verses & Bridge: Fingerpicked acoustic guitar, soft piano, warm evolving synth pads, gentle pluck synths, subtle arpeggiated synths, and ambient vocal chops for texture Pre-Chorus: Rising synth sweeps, rhythmic sidechained synth pulses, subtle wobble bass growls building tension Chorus Drops: Heavy wobble bass with modulated filter cutoff, bright detuned supersaw leads with mild distortion, chopped and glitchy vocal chops from the chorus vocals, aggressive stereo synth stabs with distortion and delay, deep sine wave sub bass Final Chorus & Outro: Layered drop elements plus pad swells, filtered noise risers, and atmospheric glitch effects for immersive texture Vocals: British female vocals, intimate and expressive in verses; layered, powerful, and dynamic in chorus Tempo: Mid-tempo (~75 BPM),
Still Not Normal
Alternative / Indie Singer-Songwriter + Dubstep, British UK vocals emotional combined with heavy dubstep drops, Raw, vulnerable verses build to explosive, cathartic dubstep choruses Verses & Bridge: Fingerpicked acoustic guitar, soft piano, warm evolving synth pads, gentle pluck synths, subtle arpeggiated synths, and ambient vocal chops for texture Pre-Chorus: Rising synth sweeps, rhythmic sidechained synth pulses, subtle wobble bass growls building tension Chorus Drops: Heavy wobble bass with modulated filter cutoff, bright detuned supersaw leads with mild distortion, chopped and glitchy vocal chops from the chorus vocals, aggressive stereo synth stabs with distortion and delay, deep sine wave sub bass Final Chorus & Outro: Layered drop elements plus pad swells, filtered noise risers, and atmospheric glitch effects for immersive texture Vocals: British female vocals, intimate and expressive in verses; layered, powerful, and dynamic in chorus Tempo: Mid-tempo (~75 BPM),
Lyrics
Intro
It’s not that I want to be perfect
I just want to stop breaking over nothing
Is that too much to ask?
Verse 1
Hands shake again as I try to begin
Looking at my own face, feeling lost within
Everyone says, “You’ve got so much light”
But I’m fighting shadows just to get through the night
Pre chorus
Tried to shut it down, but it won’t be still
This mess inside won’t take no chill
Chorus
I just wanna be normal, whatever that means ,
Not ride these waves till I’m torn at the seams
Laugh without faking, cry without shame
Feel something steady, break out of this pain, Some days I’m flying, some days I drown
Sick of the spinning, gotta come down
I’m wired to break, breaking still
And I hate that I always will
Verse 2
Smiled too wide, then snapped without cause
Thought I was better, but I never get far
Memorize calm like it’s a foreign word
And every small kindness just hurts
Pre chorus
Told myself “next time, stay composed”
But I shake like glass no one holds
Chorus
I just wanna be normal, whatever that means
Not feel like a flood behind every scene
Talk without spiraling, sleep through the night
Be soft without splitting, be wrong and still right
Some days I vanish, some I explode
Don’t know who I am, just carry the load
I’m wired to break, and I’m breaking still
God, I hate that I always will
Bridge
I see people walking like they’re made of stone
While I’m stitched from glass and fear alone
I don’t want magic, I don’t need a cure
Just a day that feels like less of a war
But in the cracks, the light still finds a way
A whispered promise in the breaking day
Every scar’s a story, every breath a fight
There’s a dawn beyond this endless night
Final Chorus
I just wanna be normal not better, not fixed
Just live in a world that finally sticks
No more pretending, no more defense
No more surviving like it’s self-defense
Some days I’m hope, some days I’m pain
But I’m tired of dancing inside the rain
I’m wired to break, and maybe I will
But I’m here
And I’m fighting still
Outro
Still not normal
Still not gone
But still
Hanging on