Yeah…

so many names I carry…

some I knew… some I never got to meet…

but I feel them all…

I came back to Ohio just to feel okay,

like maybe life would finally change someday.

Uncle Herbie was there when I stepped inside,

like for once I didn’t have to hide.

It felt like home, it felt like peace,

like all my pain could finally release.

But I didn’t know how fast it would turn,

didn’t know how much I’d still burn.

A year ago, you were taken from me,

and I still don’t know how that’s supposed to be.

One moment here, then you were gone,

and I had to keep moving on.

Now I replay it inside my head,

every single thing I never said.

If I knew that day was your last goodbye…

I’d still be asking why…

I miss my Uncle Herbie, I still say your name,

and nothing in my world feels the same.

You were here… then you slipped away,

and I’m still trying to face each day.

Aunt Terry, you left back in 2017,

but you still live in everything I’ve seen.

I never got to say goodbye that day,

now I carry you both in every way.

So many names I still hold inside…

some in memory, some in time.

You never really left me…

you still live in memory…

Aunt Terry, I still hold what you gave,

that stuffed animal still helps me stay brave.

Years have passed but it’s still right here,

like your love never disappeared.

And I was in foster care trying to grow,

moving places nobody would know.

Still you were warmth when life felt cold,

something real I could hold.

And there’s names I never got to meet,

family stories incomplete.

My grandpa left before I was born,

before I even knew the world I’m from.

An aunt I never got to see at all,

went missing and never came home at all.

No answers left, no trace behind,

just questions stuck in my mind.

And another aunt just nine years old,

a brain tumor took her before she could grow old.

So many lives I only know through pain,

like echoes inside my family name.

I never got to say goodbye to most,

just memories I hold the closest.

And I wish I had more time to stay…

before they were taken away…

I miss my Uncle Herbie, I still say your name,

and nothing in my world feels the same.

You were here… then you slipped away,

and I’m still trying to face each day.

Aunt Terry, you left back in 2017,

but you still live in everything I’ve seen.

I never got to say goodbye that day,

now I carry you both in every way.

So many names I still hold inside…

some in memory, some in time.

You never really left me…

you still live in memory…

I talk to silence like you’re still here,

like love can cross through fear.

And I know I lost more than I can say,

but I still feel you every day.

Some left before I could even know,

some I had to watch go.

But none of you ever really leave…

you’re all part of me.

I miss my Uncle Herbie, I still say your name,

and nothing in my world feels the same.

You were here… then you slipped away,

but I still feel you every day.

Aunt Terry, you still live in my mind,

in every memory I leave behind.

No goodbye, just love that stays,

through every night and every day.

So many names I still hold inside…

you’re the reason I survive.

You never really left me…

you still live in memory…

Yeah…

all of you…

still with me… in memory…