Valentine’s lights outside my window

But my room stays quiet and numb

I learned to survive in the silence

Where love comes… and then runs

Right now I’m sinking low

I need to move slow, take my time

I’m not broken, I’m just tired

Of watching connections die

Eight months buried under goodbye

Two hopes fell, one almost stayed

I never asked for forever

Just a reason not to fade

I didn’t cage, I didn’t bend them

Didn’t ask them to change their skin

I showed my heart with open hands

And still… they vanished again

It could’ve saved me

It could’ve held me tight

It wasn’t all imagination

It was real — I was alive

The connection

The safety

That feeling: “Here I can be me”

But I inject the anesthesia

So no one mistakes my sensitivity

For weakness…

No, never weakness

I’m a homebound soul in a locked routine

Exclusive without choosing to be

A heart preserved behind glass

Waiting for someone brave to see

At night I whisper soft prayers

To gods, to stars, to the void

Asking for presence, not promises

Just someone who won’t avoid

If I stay imprisoned

Would you still choose me the same?

If my hands shake while I love you

Would you still say my name?

I cry for everyone

And somehow… for no one at all

I numb my pulse so I won’t beg

I stand here quiet… against the fall

The connection

The safety

That place where I don’t have to hide

I slow my heart, apply anesthesia

But my love was never a crime

Don’t confuse my gentleness

With something easy to break

I’m still here, still breathing

Still human… still awake

Valentine’s passes like a ghost

I remain, learning to wait

If love finds me in these chains

I hope it stays…

I hope it stays