Verse 1

I walk the edge of Sanam Luang

Friday night, the traffic hums along

Past the Grand Palace lights aglow

I feel like I belong, though I’m just passing through

Warm winds brushing on my skin

Tamarind leaves falling, brushing in

November’s here but Bangkok stays the same

It’s hot, hot, and always hot again

Pre-Chorus

But I’ve grown used to this heavy air

I can’t stand the cold out there

I wear these thin elephant pants I love

Like I’m naked, walking bold, walking bare

Chorus

I feel sexy, I feel wrong

I feel wild and alone

In a place that doesn’t need to love me back

I’ve roamed these streets before

Didn’t need a strong man at my door

Love was just a candy I could live without

Until the hunger came

And I remembered your name

Verse 2

There—at the edge of this quiet field

Is your art school, small, antique, and real

That’s where I saw you for the first time

The long-haired boy, the artist in his prime

I stayed the same—a foolish child

Still haunted by your broken smile

I left, I know I hurt you bad

They said you bled from being sad

Pre-Chorus 2

Please don’t do that, love, don’t fall

I was never worth that pain at all

Have you found someone new since then?

I’d probably find the same again and again

Chorus

I feel sexy, I feel wrong

I feel dirty, I feel strong

It’s the clothes, it’s the heat, it’s the way I survive

I still walk past your world

Looking at temples, art, and girls

Trying to believe I’ll one day feel alright

And stop the rage that tears me from inside

Bridge

What am I now—devil or ghost?

I break what I need the most

Two times I’ve tried, two times I fell

And I don’t know why I love and lose so well

Final Chorus

But what I gave, I gave whole

No secrets, no half-souls

Even when I left, I loved you loud

So I walk and watch and try

To heal from what I couldn’t hide

Maybe someday I’ll forgive myself somehow