------------------------------------------

LYRICS & MUSIC: ©️SpaceGhostBones

🌕Thank you for listening 🖤🌑✌🏻

------------------------------------------

This song contains themes of illness, trauma, and emotional struggle. May be triggering for some listeners. 🖤🧠

------------------------------------------

Still breathin

Still survivin

Mmmmmmm

I don’t know how I keep movin

Body heavy, thoughts confusin

But the dogs still need me, the house still calls

And I answer, even when I feel like losin

Woke up sore in a war with my breath

Still put on socks, still clean the mess

Still tell my girl, it's alright, just stress

While my chest says otherwise under my dress

I been carryin’ grief like groceries home

List so long, I forgot my own

Plans fall through before they’re grown

But I show up every time like it’s known

Learned early how to smile on command

How to read the room with a tremblin’ hand

Learned how to make peace with demands

While my own needs sank like sand

Mask on tight with the seams all frayed

Tone just right, so I don’t get weighed

Too much, too blunt, too sharp, too late

So I say less, just in case

Got dreams I can’t keep track of

Runnin’ on fumes, still packin’ love

Burnout dressed like a daily task

But I clock in like I’m built to last

I still write when the fog rolls in

Still clean floors when I’m wearin’ thin

Still love deep, even when I spin

Still got fire, buried within

And I don’t wanna be brave for applause

I just wanna rest without feelin’ at odds

With this world that rewards what it never supports

And asks you to smile through the loss

So I keep goin, not ‘cause it’s fine

But ‘cause I made it mine

This pain, this fight, this climb

Ain’t the end

It’s just my line

Still breathin

Still survivin

Had cancer once, now I carry that name

Like a ghost that lives in my shoulder blades

Try not to flinch every time I change

Every lump, every bruise feels the same

I mourn the body I don’t get back

The mind I lost when the fog turned black

The girl I was when the road went flat

Before the you’re so strong became a trap

And I collapsed

But in the end

I wasn't alone

She

She was the ground beneath my war

Fed me love I didn’t feel worthy of anymore

Planned the days when I lost my thread

Made meals, made calm, made sure I was fed

She drove when I couldn’t, held the rage

Shielded me soft through another cage

She carried weight I couldn’t name

And never once made me feel ashamed

She’s the strength, and I’m the soft

She held the roof when my world dropped off

We both survived, but she built the ground

So I could still rise when I broke down

Some days I pray for silence, not peace, just space between demands

But I flinch when it comes, 'cause it means I exist again

No hands holdin’ the weight for me

And I can't even scream without thinkin’ if it sounds like I’m weak

So I swallow it clean

Chest tight, jaw clenched

Pacing the kitchen at 3 am, tryna pretend I’m just thirsty

Like my brain ain’t throwin’ fists in the dark

Like I don’t hear echoes of every damn thing that broke me bark

Like a dog I fed too long, grief with a name I still mouth in songs

You don’t know what it’s like to survive without rest

To be loved and still feel like a guest in your own chest

To pour for everyone and still thirst

To cry like it’s strategy, hide your worst

And hope they don’t see the crack in the glass

So you smile with your teeth and say this too shall pass

But it don’t

Not really

The storm just teaches you how to carry rain differently

How to turn breakdowns into bullet points for therapy

How to be the strong one when you’re barely present mentally

How to clean the house while disassociating gently

How to hold your girl while forgettin’ if you’re empty

How to say I’m tired like it’s just a joke

How to carry your pain in the folds of a coat you just woke up wearin

They call it resilience

I call it comparin’ my worth to survival, like livin’ means I won

But what if I’m just the one who never got the option to run

What if strength ain’t virtue but a lack of escape

What if bravery’s just not leavin when you know it’s too late

What if love ain’t soft, it’s just quiet and taped together with fear

What if healing never comes, and this is just the career of surviving

But it's alright, it's alright

Every day, still risin

Body breakin, but I’m stylin

Holdin’ grace with no guidance

And I’m still here, so maybe that’s defiance

Yeah, maybe that's defiance

Still here

Still breathin

Still beatin

Still reachin

Still move when I feel like leavin

Cry quiet, but I keep speakin

Ain’t fine

But I show up

Even when my soul’s had enough

Don’t know how

But I hold on

Every fear I face makes me strong

But it's alright, it's alright

Every day, still risin

Body breakin, but I’m stylin

Holdin’ grace with no guidance

And I’m still here, so maybe that’s defiance

Yeah, maybe that's defiance

Still here

Still breathin

Still beatin

Still reachin

Still move when I feel like leavin

Cry quiet, but I keep speakin

Holdin’ grace with no guidance

And I’m still here, so maybe that’s defiance

Yeah, maybe that's defiance