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LYRICS & MUSIC: ©️SpaceGhostBones
🌕Thank you for listening 🖤🌑✌🏻
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[[Content Advisory:]]
This song contains themes of illness, trauma, and emotional struggle. May be triggering for some listeners. 🖤🧠
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[LYRICS:]
Still breathin
Still survivin

Mmmmmmm

I don’t know how I keep movin
Body heavy, thoughts confusin
But the dogs still need me, the house still calls
And I answer, even when I feel like losin
Woke up sore in a war with my breath
Still put on socks, still clean the mess
Still tell my girl, it's alright, just stress
While my chest says otherwise under my dress
I been carryin’ grief like groceries home
List so long, I forgot my own
Plans fall through before they’re grown
But I show up every time like it’s known
Learned early how to smile on command
How to read the room with a tremblin’ hand
Learned how to make peace with demands
While my own needs sank like sand
Mask on tight with the seams all frayed
Tone just right, so I don’t get weighed
Too much, too blunt, too sharp, too late
So I say less, just in case

Got dreams I can’t keep track of
Runnin’ on fumes, still packin’ love
Burnout dressed like a daily task
But I clock in like I’m built to last
I still write when the fog rolls in
Still clean floors when I’m wearin’ thin
Still love deep, even when I spin
Still got fire, buried within

And I don’t wanna be brave for applause
I just wanna rest without feelin’ at odds
With this world that rewards what it never supports
And asks you to smile through the loss
So I keep goin, not ‘cause it’s fine
But ‘cause I made it mine
This pain, this fight, this climb
Ain’t the end
It’s just my line

Still breathin
Still survivin

Had cancer once, now I carry that name
Like a ghost that lives in my shoulder blades
Try not to flinch every time I change
Every lump, every bruise feels the same
I mourn the body I don’t get back
The mind I lost when the fog turned black
The girl I was when the road went flat
Before the you’re so strong became a trap

And I collapsed
But in the end
I wasn't alone

She
She was the ground beneath my war
Fed me love I didn’t feel worthy of anymore
Planned the days when I lost my thread
Made meals, made calm, made sure I was fed
She drove when I couldn’t, held the rage
Shielded me soft through another cage
She carried weight I couldn’t name
And never once made me feel ashamed
She’s the strength, and I’m the soft
She held the roof when my world dropped off
We both survived, but she built the ground
So I could still rise when I broke down

Some days I pray for silence, not peace, just space between demands
But I flinch when it comes, 'cause it means I exist again
No hands holdin’ the weight for me
And I can't even scream without thinkin’ if it sounds like I’m weak
So I swallow it clean
Chest tight, jaw clenched
Pacing the kitchen at 3 am, tryna pretend I’m just thirsty
Like my brain ain’t throwin’ fists in the dark
Like I don’t hear echoes of every damn thing that broke me bark
Like a dog I fed too long, grief with a name I still mouth in songs

You don’t know what it’s like to survive without rest
To be loved and still feel like a guest in your own chest
To pour for everyone and still thirst
To cry like it’s strategy, hide your worst
And hope they don’t see the crack in the glass
So you smile with your teeth and say this too shall pass
But it don’t

Not really

The storm just teaches you how to carry rain differently
How to turn breakdowns into bullet points for therapy
How to be the strong one when you’re barely present mentally
How to clean the house while disassociating gently
How to hold your girl while forgettin’ if you’re empty
How to say I’m tired like it’s just a joke
How to carry your pain in the folds of a coat you just woke up wearin
They call it resilience
I call it comparin’ my worth to survival, like livin’ means I won
But what if I’m just the one who never got the option to run
What if strength ain’t virtue but a lack of escape
What if bravery’s just not leavin when you know it’s too late
What if love ain’t soft, it’s just quiet and taped together with fear
What if healing never comes, and this is just the career of surviving

But it's alright, it's alright
Every day, still risin
Body breakin, but I’m stylin
Holdin’ grace with no guidance
And I’m still here, so maybe that’s defiance
Yeah, maybe that's defiance

Still here
Still breathin
Still beatin
Still reachin
Still move when I feel like leavin
Cry quiet, but I keep speakin
Ain’t fine
But I show up
Even when my soul’s had enough
Don’t know how
But I hold on
Every fear I face makes me strong

But it's alright, it's alright
Every day, still risin
Body breakin, but I’m stylin
Holdin’ grace with no guidance
And I’m still here, so maybe that’s defiance
Yeah, maybe that's defiance

Still here
Still breathin
Still beatin
Still reachin
Still move when I feel like leavin
Cry quiet, but I keep speakin

Holdin’ grace with no guidance
And I’m still here, so maybe that’s defiance
Yeah, maybe that's defiance