
Friend I Should’ve Been
rap, conscious rap, hip hop, deep meaning, sad, hard hitting, detailed instrumentals, synthwave instrumentals, electronic instrumentals

Friend I Should’ve Been
rap, conscious rap, hip hop, deep meaning, sad, hard hitting, detailed instrumentals, synthwave instrumentals, electronic instrumentals
Lyrics
Verse 1:
I used to say too much, talk when I should’ve listened
Pushed a little hard when you needed some distance
Struggled to be just a friend when my heart was loud
Tried to show I cared, but I let it all spill out
Yeah, I liked you, that part's true
But I wasn’t trying to cross what mattered to you
It’s just hard when you're the only one I trust
And I didn’t know how to hold back enough
I know now that it hurt, and I can't undo
All the pressure I put when I thought I knew
But I didn’t, I was just scared of the silence
Now I’m sitting in it, learning from the quiet
Hook:
So give me time, not to walk away
But to change while I stay in your world, if that’s okay
I'm not chasing, I'm not asking for love
Just a chance to prove that a friend’s what I was
If I said too much, if I made things worse
Know it came from a place of not knowing your hurt
I was deep in my head, trying to hold on tight
But I’ll learn how to stay without messing it up this time
Verse 2:
You don’t owe me a thing, not a text, not a word
But if you hear this, I just hope I’m heard
I understand you may need space, and I get that now
And I respect it, even if it breaks me down
I know I’m not easy to be close to
I’ve got scars and moods I don’t always show through
I act tough, like none of it phases me
But truth is, I’m breaking quietly, painfully
You did a lot for me, more than you know
And I messed it up cause I didn’t want to lose you
I’m just trying to be the friend I should’ve been
Not perfect or fake, just honest and clean
If you ever let me back, I won’t make it a mess
I’ll be steady, respectful, and nothing less
Hook:
So give me time, not to walk away
But to change while I stay in your world, if that’s okay
I'm not chasing, I'm not asking for love
Just a chance to prove that a friend’s what I was
If I said too much, if I made things worse
Know it came from a place of not knowing your hurt
I was deep in my head, trying to hold on tight
But I’ll learn how to stay without messing it up this time
Verse 3:
Maybe I was there too much, acting more than a friend
Scared to lose you, didn’t mean to push or offend
But losing you when you’re the one I trust
Left a space in my life that’s deeper than just
“Missing someone”, it’s more than that
You were the best thing in a world gone mad
So if all I can be is just a friend by your side
Then I’ll be proud to stand there, steady and right
You don’t need fixing, you don’t need me
But I’m still here quietly, patiently
Not to beg, not to win, not to take what's gone
Just to be the kind of friend you can lean on
