I love you 💔

Love's always beautiful...
Is it not?
A force that can't be stopped
A juggernaut
Love's always beautiful...
Till it's not
Heartbreaks can't be stopped...
Juggernauts

My dear friend Freddy,
How you doin'?
How's it goin'?
Me… wonderin' if I’m okay
With this pen to you I write
Hands clasped, I pray
Hoping you might make it right…
Somehow
Got this sour twist, no appetite
Want to puke after a few bites
Can no longer sleep at night
Crying out my life; an awful sight
See, tear ducts only run one way
Once the tears are out, they stay
Gotta wipe them all away
Gotta wipe them all away
Any idea what I should do?
Is it just me?
Or do you think grown men cry too?
Should I cry out all my fear?
Should I empty out my tears?
Once I stop, will I find what to say?
Once my eyes run dry, will I finally be okay?
Freddy, somethin' grips my guts like Krueger
Not the toilet paper, the one with the claws, the monster
She's clawin' through my dreams again
Razor fingers slicin' memories from back then
Leavin' me wide awake
Could use a fucking break
Bleedin' regrets in the dark
Sleep always misses the mark
See, she was always around
But today she is not
Like cheap earbuds left in your pocket too long
My throat's in a knot
Tangled, twisted, tight
Impossible to untangle without rippin' somethin' raw
An impossible sight, somethin' even you never saw
When I try to swallow it whole, it just knows
When I try to spit it out, it just grows
Tighter and tighter
Really fucking tight, Krueger
Could really use a breather
Can't hold my breath forever

Love's always beautiful...
Is it not?
A force that can't be stopped
A juggernaut
Love's always beautiful...
Till it's not
Heartbreaks can't be stopped...
Juggernauts

You know...
I'm waitin', and waitin'
I'm prayin', and prayin'
She'll write just to say hi
How you doin'? how's it goin'?
How you feelin' today?
How you feelin' inside?
Mood check? I’m a wreck.
What is she doing’?
Why's she waitin'?
Is she hopin' for me to cry?
Is she wishin' for me to die?
For her...
Nah.
It's cause she can't
I blocked her
Freddy, Why'd I do that?
I miss her
Guts gripped by glove blades
Slashin' deeper into the promise I made
The wounds indifferent to the band-aid
Sometimes I just wish I had stayed
You know what, Freddy?
Maybe love's just two juggernauts
Crashin' head-on
And whoever's left standin'
Gets to write the poem
So here I am… Still breathin'.
Still cryin'
Still alive
Still standin'
Still hers...
Fuck.

Love's always beautiful...
Is it not?
A force that can't be stopped
A juggernaut
Love's always beautiful...
Till it's not
Heartbreaks can't be stopped...
Juggernauts