© Chibiitaii

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no place I belong, it’s all a dead weight dragging

school’s a cage where I’m the echo no one hears

eyes burn through my skin, the air’s too thick with silence

the faces fade like I don’t even matter

just another shadow, nobody wants me here

home’s the same but colder, walls whisper hate like they’re breathing

father’s voice cutting deep, no love in the echoes, just noise

he says I ruin everything, but there’s nothing to destroy

I want to run, vanish into the night and be found by hands that hold me

but I’m broken, and who saves the shattered?

who loves the pieces that can’t fit back together?

hands hurt, arms burn, nerves shot from what I’ve done—

maybe it’ll stop if I leave it alone, but nothing ever leaves me alone

insomnia eats the hours, voices crawl through my skull

they tell me things I’m afraid to hear, but still, I listen

still, I keep breathing when all I want is to stop

my body’s a mess, can’t hold down food

too much poison swallowed trying to forget

but I’m still heavy, still stuck here, like a weight in a world too light

everything I touch crumbles, and I’m the ruin of it all

there’s no choice now, no door left to walk through

death’s the only escape from this cold

the only place I can slip away without hurting

because if I stay, I only hurt them

and I’ve hurt myself enough to know that’s all I’ll ever do