I hate my life

Real as real ever gets

Wish I could do a do over

But we're here now

So many fake friends and fake twins

Just like the fake grass

That I thought was greener on the other side

I got hit I was open wide

With my feelings

That they kicked like a football

My opp was my own quarterback

I need an interception

By the higher divine

Horrific insult to the injury

Is when I put myself down

I call myself retarded and believe it

Seems like I'm running folks away

All I did was clear my name

From the fake blame

Got emotions that's boiling

Don't know whether I'm coming or going

Seems I pissed off everybody

I ain't mean to

I just wanna feel loved

Feel accepted

Feel wanted

Feel nurtured

My childhood was not normal

I get blamed for being the victim

And told I am not innocent

Been told that all my life which

Is why I drink and try to escape

I don't wanna be here

If this ain't hell

I promise to act right

Ain't this about a bitch?

The days getting hotter and hotter

The hell I'm going through

Is getting hotter and hotter

I'm yelling through the bars of this prison

In my mind

I'm screaming pain from the pit of my stomach

I ain't lyin'

I'm unwanted I get it

I'm unworthy I get it

But ya'll be telling lies on me

Don't want me to clear my name

Ya'll see how they be doing me dirty

Ya'll always blame me

I don't wanna be here

None of this makes sense

Don't think it ever will

I'm tire, I'm tired