hook;

i was drift in

tryin to find my voice inside the space where you’d talk over mine

i was shiftin

balancin emotions that you’d tilt with every line

i was slippin

holdin on to pieces that you pushed on all the time

i was stay in

in a quiet that you shaped like it was yours not mine

verse;

look

you’d ask me things that never mattered just to make me second guess

like

why you quiet right now

whats that look

you seem a mess

and im tryin to keep it cool

tryna not let pressure win

while you read into my silence like it’s somethin deep within

you’d turn a simple moment into somethin heavy fast

askin why im sittin different

why i breathed a certain past

and i’d laugh it off

pretend that it was nothing

hide the hit

cause i knew if i explained it

you’d find somethin else to twist

you ever feel like every move is bein watched in real time

like even bein tired makes you guilty of a crime

thats how it felt

like i had to stand perfect in your view

just to keep the peace from breakin into two

hook;

i was drift in

tryin to find my voice inside the space where you’d talk over mine

i was shiftin

balancin emotions that you’d tilt with every line

i was slippin

holdin on to pieces that you pushed on all the time

i was stay in

in a quiet that you shaped like it was yours not mine

verse;

you’d laugh at things i cared about

call it jokes but they would sting

and i’d pretend i didnt notice

just to stop another swing

not physical

just words

but they hit the same at night

made me question every part of me you said wasnt right

you’d say

why you think you did good

that was nothin

chill

and i’d swallow all that doubt

sayin maybe she meant well

but deep down i knew the truth

you were proud when i was low

when i stood up for myself

you’d say

where did that come from though

like confidence was somethin you were scared to see me hold

like me bein okay was a story you couldnt control

and i kept shrinking

kept adjusting

til the real me pulled away

til i barely recognized the version that i played

hook;

i was drift in

tryin to find my voice inside the space where you’d talk over mine

i was shiftin

balancin emotions that you’d tilt with every line

i was slippin

holdin on to pieces that you pushed on all the time

i was stay in

in a quiet that you shaped like it was yours not mine

verse;

now

i move like someone learnin how to breathe again for real

findin comfort in the moments you once taught me not to feel

every step i take without you hits a little more like peace

like im finally gettin back the parts of me you made decrease

im not guarded cause of heartbreak

im just careful what i show

cause trust hits different after all the places you would go

to turn small things into problems

make the daylight feel like night

til i questioned if my instincts had the room to be right

but im rebuildin every piece

im not carryin what you threw

i found space inside the silence

and it’s somethin you cant do

i was

but im not stayin somewhere i cant grow

i walked out

and i found me on the road

hook;

i was drift in

tryin to find my voice inside the space where you’d talk over mine

i was shiftin

balancin emotions that you’d tilt with every line

i was slippin

holdin on to pieces that you pushed on all the time

i was stay in

in a quiet that you shaped like it was yours not mine