(Suzu on da beat)

nobody tells you this part

you're gonna be lonely

in love

you're gonna be lonely

in a crowd

you're gonna be lonely

at the top

lonely is not the problem

lonely is the whole thing

I used to think it was a phase

something I'd grow out of

something the right life would fix

the right city, right job, right person

got all three

still woke up at 3AM

with that thing in my chest

that doesn't have a name

not sadness

not emptiness

just

the awareness

that no matter how close someone gets

they're still

on the other side of your skin

you can't merge with another person

you can't actually give someone your interior

you just hand them words

and hope the translation holds

it never fully holds

and that used to terrify me

now it just feels like

the weather

something you dress for

not something you fix

(Suzu on da beat)

nobody tells you this part

you're gonna be lonely

in love

you're gonna be lonely

in a crowd

you're gonna be lonely

at the top

lonely is not the problem

lonely is the whole thing

everybody's performing not being lonely

that's what most of life is

the dinner plans

the group chats

the stories you post at golden hour

proof of concept

I am not alone

look

but drive home after

sit in the parking lot

before you go inside

just one more minute

because inside means quiet

and quiet means

you again

just you

like always

I stopped running from it around 25

not because I figured it out

but because I got tired

and tired feels like peace

if you hold it long enough

maybe every person alive

is standing in a room full of people

feeling this exact thing

and saying nothing

because saying it out loud

makes it too real

or maybe saying it out loud

is the only thing that makes it bearable

I don't know

I really don't know

(Suzu on da beat)

you're not broken

you're not missing something

you're not doing it wrong

you're just

alive

and alive

has always been

a little lonely