
Dear Doctor (Controlled Insanity)
Slow Wild vibrant introspective heavy sad pop punk anthem
Alex Curly·4:31

4:31
Dear Doctor (Controlled Insanity)
Slow Wild vibrant introspective heavy sad pop punk anthem
Creator: Alex CurlyRelease Date: February 17, 2025
Lyrics
[Verse 1]
Dear Doctor, I’m fine—just a masterpiece of crossed wires,
A tightrope walker juggling nitroglycerine and desires.
My to-do list? “Breathe, don’t scream, pretend you’ve got a plan,”
But my inner critic’s heckling like a drunk garage band.
[Pre-Chorus]
Is it panic or a party when the walls start to breathe?
“Just girlboss your trauma!”—thanks, that’s so revolutionary.
One pill left, three crises—do the math,
I’m Schrödinger’s hot mess in a TikTok laugh.
[Chorus]
Controlled insanity—it’s a fragile little dance!
I’m the queen of almost-calm in a clown car avalanche.
Sanity whispers “Run!”—Insanity yells “SPARKLE!”
We’re splitting the bill on this beautiful disaster!
[Verse 2]
I meditated once—now my chakras are on fire,
My shadow just winked and slow-clapped, “Girl, you’re inspired!”
My heart’s a slot machine: cha-ching! with every bad bet,
But the house always wins in this rent-controlled regret.
[Pre-Chorus]
Is it panic or a party when the walls start to breathe?
“Just girlboss your trauma!”—thanks, that’s so revolutionary.
One pill left, three crises—do the math,
I’m Schrödinger’s hot mess in a TikTok laugh.
[Chorus]
Controlled insanity—it’s a fragile little dance!
I’m the queen of almost-calm in a clown car avalanche.
Sanity whispers “Run!”—Insanity yells “SPARKLE!”
We’re splitting the bill on this beautiful disaster!
[Verse 3]
I RSVP’d to Sanity’s gala—Insanity showed up in flames,
Ate the hors d’oeuvres, kissed the host, and renamed the place “Disarray’s”.
My coping skills? A magic-eight ball duct-taped to my wrist,
It answers “Ask Again Later”—so I scream-laugh through the list.
[Bridge]
Sanity called—left a voicemail in my veins:
“We need kale, 8 hours, and a firewall for the pain!”
Insanity crashed through—grinned, “Babe, let’s get loud—
I’m your best mistake, and honey, you’re mine now.”
[Chorus]
Controlled insanity—it’s a fragile little dance!
I’m the queen of almost-calm in a clown car avalanche.
Sanity whispers “Run!”—Insanity yells “SPARKLE!”
We’re splitting the bill on this beautiful disaster!
[Outro] (Spoken, like reading a letter, breaking apart)
“Dear Doctor,
I know you said to check in when things got bad…”
(Pause, shaky breath.)
“But what if ‘bad’ is just how I wake up now?”
“The walls still breathe, my thoughts still scream,
And my morning coffee still tastes like self-esteem.”
(Bitter laugh.)
“You told me to sleep, but I keep waking up mid-fall—
Like I missed the exit to reality and now there’s no road at all.”
“I tried to be normal. I tried to be still.
But sanity is a language my brain won’t fulfill.”
“So here’s my confession, my curse, my refrain—
My beautiful downfall, my lifelong migraine.”
(Silence… then a quiet, broken whisper.)
“Please… tell me you’ve got something stronger.”
(Static hum… then a sudden, guttural scream:)
“BECAUSE EVERYTHING IS ON FIRE IN HERE!!!”
[Bridge]
Sanity called—left a voicemail in my veins:
“We need kale, 8 hours, and a firewall for the pain!”
Insanity crashed through—grinned, “Babe, let’s get loud—
I’m your best mistake, and honey, you’re mine now.”
[Outro] [female Spoken, like reading a letter, breaking apart]
“Dear Doctor,
I know you said to check in when things got bad…”
[Pause, female shaky breath.]
“But what if ‘bad’ is just how I wake up now?”
“The walls still breathe, my thoughts still scream,
And my morning coffee still tastes like self-esteem.”
[Bitter laugh.]
“You told me to sleep, but I keep waking up mid-fall—
Like I missed the exit to reality and now there’s no road at all.”
“I tried to be normal. I tried to be still.
But sanity is a language my brain won’t fulfill.”
“So here’s my confession, my curse, my refrain—
My beautiful downfall, my lifelong migraine.”
[Silence… then a quiet, broken female whisper.]
“Please… tell me you’ve got something stronger.”
[guttural female scream:]
“BECAUSE EVERYTHING IS ON FIRE IN HERE!!!”
