It’s starting again

I didn’t ask for it

I’m back in that same place

Same room, same look on your face

I know what’s about to happen

But I still can’t change it

I try to move, I try to speak

But it goes the way it did

Every word, every second

Exactly like it is

I’ve seen this too many times

I know every line

It plays again in my head

Every word that was said

Every second I stayed

When I should’ve left instead

It plays again, I can’t stop it

I feel it like I’m still in it

I know how it ends

But I still have to live it

I hear the same tone in your voice

The same silence after the noise

I know where I stand in that moment

Like I never had a choice

I notice things I missed before

Small details I can’t ignore

But it doesn’t change a thing

It just hurts a little more

I try to look away

But it always stays

It plays again in my head

Every word that was said

Every second I stayed

When I should’ve left instead

It plays again, I can’t stop it

I feel it like I’m still in it

I know how it ends

But I still have to live it

I don’t react now

I just watch it happen

I know what comes next

I don’t try to fight it

I don’t change a thing

I just let it play out

It plays again in my head

But it’s quieter now

Every word, every step

I just let it run out

It plays again, but I see it

Like I’m not really in it

I know how it ends

And I finally accept it

It’s over

It always ends the same