めんどくさいな #Rock
alt-pop, emo trap, rock, punk, acidd jazz,blues,slap guitar + cracked whisper vocal + analog pad, no soft piano intro, Drums: distorted 808s, trap hi-hats, snapping snares, glitch fills that feel unstable, Bass:wood deep sub-bass, sidechain with kick, heavy but warm, Guitar: sharp slap rhythms, tremolo walls in verse, overdrive punch in chorus, dreamy washed layers in bridge and final, Piano: cinematic, hard attack but imperfect and slightly detuned in bridge and break, FX: reversed delays,pads, voice echoes, tape hiss, vinyl crackle, breath left in, short moments of silence, Female vocal: hard raspy and husky, breathy, hard vibrato, raw, frantic,explosive, voice must crack, break, miss notes, let the voice collapse mid-line, then recover, then shatter again
めんどくさいな #Rock
alt-pop, emo trap, rock, punk, acidd jazz,blues,slap guitar + cracked whisper vocal + analog pad, no soft piano intro, Drums: distorted 808s, trap hi-hats, snapping snares, glitch fills that feel unstable, Bass:wood deep sub-bass, sidechain with kick, heavy but warm, Guitar: sharp slap rhythms, tremolo walls in verse, overdrive punch in chorus, dreamy washed layers in bridge and final, Piano: cinematic, hard attack but imperfect and slightly detuned in bridge and break, FX: reversed delays,pads, voice echoes, tape hiss, vinyl crackle, breath left in, short moments of silence, Female vocal: hard raspy and husky, breathy, hard vibrato, raw, frantic,explosive, voice must crack, break, miss notes, let the voice collapse mid-line, then recover, then shatter again
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違和感を覚えたのは いつだった？
興味をもつんじゃなかった
かかわるんじゃなかった
何もしらなかった
何も知らされていなかった
内面に、触れず
互いに干渉しない距離
たまにね、
全てを壊したくなる
もうすべて捨ててしまおうか
ずっとウソの中にいると自分がわからなくなっていく
考えるのが憂鬱だな
何もかも忘れてしまいたい
めんどくさいな
笑顔で突き放される気持ちってわかる？
優しくあしらわれる気持ちってわかる？
ザワザワするんだ
心が折れる音が聞こえる
聞こえるかい？
きっかけはいつでも自分
責めてるのは、自分自身だよ
誰もキミを 傷つけてない
無自覚で責めるのはやめなよ
決断を後悔して、意味なんてない
自分が醜い人間だなんて、認めたくない
知りたくない
だけど・・
それでも受け入れないと
前にはすすめない
もう一人の自分？
君はボクで、ボクはキミだよ
そしたら？
そしたら？
何も変わらないよ
言葉がたんないだけ？
そんなに優しいのに
誤解されやすいだけ？
もうこんなとこに迷いこまねーでね
何も知らないヤツラの誹謗中傷
そんなもんと 向き合う必要はない
乗り越える必要もない
何も考えてない人達に
かかわる必要はない
ヤツラに価値なんてないんだよ
「何でもないよ」
「大丈夫だよ」
何も言わなくていいよ
大丈夫
なにも聞かない
孤独で
誰からも愛されず
誰のことも信じられない
必死にあらがって
全身で自分を叫んでいたね
ぶつけて、傷つけることでしかできなかった
誰にも届かなかった声
自分をすてることでしか
なにかを守れない
自分の場所を見失わないで
自分の場所を見失わないで
When was it…
that I first felt something was wrong?
I shouldn't have gotten interested.
I shouldn't have gotten involved.
I didn't know anything.
I wasn't told anything.
Never touching what's inside,
a distance where we don't interfere.
Sometimes, you know…
I just want to break everything.
Maybe I should just throw it all away?
Living inside a lie for so long,
I'm starting to lose who I am.
Thinking about it is depressing.
I want to forget it all.
It's such a pain.
Do you know how it feels
to be pushed away with a smile?
Do you know how it feels
to be gently brushed aside?
There’s a static buzzing inside me.
I can hear the sound of my spirit breaking.
Can you hear it?
The trigger is always me.
The one you’re blaming is yourself.
No one is hurting you.
Stop blaming yourself without even realizing it.
There's no point in regretting your decisions.
I don't want to admit
that I'm an ugly person inside.
I don't want to know.
But…
if I don't accept it,
I can't move forward.
Another me?
You are me, and I am you.
So then what?
So then what?
Nothing changes.
Is it just a lack of words?
Even though you're so kind…
Am I just the type to be misunderstood?
Don't you get lost in a place like this again.
The slander from strangers who know nothing.
You don't need to face that.
You don't need to overcome it.
You don't need to get involved
with people who never think.
They have no value.
"It's nothing."
"I'm okay."
You don't have to say anything.
It's alright.
I won't ask a thing.
Alone.
Unloved by anyone.
Unable to trust anyone.
Resisting desperately.
You were screaming who you were with your whole body.
Lashing out, hurting… it was the only way.
A voice that reached no one.
Only by throwing myself away,
could I protect something.
Don't lose your place.
Don't lose where you belong.