Why do I keep saying that I want to stop?

If I meant it, I’d be working hard, but I’m not

Maybe I’m lying to myself again, who knows

Can’t trust my thoughts, can’t trust my soul

If the memories fade, did it ever really hurt?

Was it real, or just another twisted word?

Am I making it up for the sympathy?

Or is the pain a part of me?

Lie to me, tell me what’s real

I don’t trust the way I feel

Bruised inside, but was I ever hit?

Does it matter if I can’t believe it?

Lie to me, let me forget

Erase the past, erase the regret

Don’t know the truth, don’t wanna know

Maybe it’s easier if I let it go

If I conform, maybe I’ll be free

Say the right things, pretend I’m at peace

But it’s still too painful, still so real

Even if I stop, I’ll never heal

How do I know if my story is mine?

Every memory changes all the time

I’m drowning in the fog, no clarity

Don’t want to face what I can’t see

Lie to me, tell me what’s real

I don’t trust the way I feel

Bruised inside, but was I ever hit?

Does it matter if I can’t believe it?

Lie to me, let me forget

Erase the past, erase the regret

Don’t know the truth, don’t wanna know

Maybe it’s easier if I let it go

Sorry I’m weak, sorry I’m wrong

Sorry I’ve been fighting too long

I’ll try to be quiet, won’t make a sound

But I can’t stop sinking down

Please don’t hate me for wanting to die

I’m sorry, I’m sorry for every lie

Don’t wanna hurt, don’t wanna scream

Just let me disappear unseen

Lie to me, tell me what’s real

I don’t trust the way I feel

Bruised inside, but was I ever hit?

Does it matter if I can’t believe it?

Lie to me, let me forget

Erase the past, erase the regret

Don’t know the truth, don’t wanna know

Maybe it’s easier if I let it go

Let me go, let me go

I’m sorry for being a ghost

I’ll stop the lies, I’ll disappear

Maybe then I won’t need to fear