I can't see straight I'm so faded I smoke so much all you see is clouds in this place man I been hitting blunts back to back ya boi been straight blazing just sitting here thinking which is what I don't wanna do thought I could smoke so much that eventually the memories would start erasing from my brain but now I know that it don't work like that so now I'm sitting here throwin em back shot after shot glass after glass I was. just hoping that I could drink drink drink until these memories fade but I been drinking and drinkin but yet it ain't helping a damn thing so fuck it I learned quick drinking want do shit what's next I dunno cause I'm out of options I guess there's just one more thing left to do it's the only option I have left what's next u asked imma hit my knees and cry out to God pray that he comes to save me cause lately I been going crazy replaying the memories in my head of me and you wishing they would stop because it breaks my heart and it hurts to much it's unbearable I can't handle it for another sec I've tried everything I could think of but nothing helped your my only hope left so if u hear me and if your real please come save me from the memories that are taking me to my death they bring to much pain it's unbearable please come save me because it's to much for me to handle the drugs didn't help the alcohol made it worse so now I'm on my knees calling on your name hoping like hell that this time it works