Didn't Call

Sitting in the dark with cold tea by my side

Phone glowing softly but there's nowhere left to hide

From waiting for your name to light up on the screen

Been doing this for hours, caught somewhere in between

My finger hovers over where you used to be

Heart says call him, brain says let him leave

So I don't press it, won't make that mistake

Just stare until the morning makes my whole heart ache

Didn't call, just stared

'Til the screen went black and took me with it

Didn't speak, just stayed

In the quiet where the unsent words all live

I write songs instead of messages tonight

'Cause some longing doesn't need you

It just needs the light

Remember when you said you'd always come back home

I believed every word like truth carved into stone

Now I trace your contact name with shaking hands

Drawing empty circles that you'll never understand

Battery at twenty but what's there left to save

When I'm too scared to call and not quite strong or brave

Enough to let you go or pull you back to me

Just frozen in the middle of what we'll never be

Didn't call, just stared

'Til the screen went black and took me with it

Didn't speak, just stayed

In the quiet where the unsent words all live

I write songs instead of messages tonight

'Cause some longing doesn't need you

It just needs the light

They say the bravest thing is speaking what you feel

But sometimes staying silent is what makes it real

Not every ache deserves to reach across the wire

Some things sound better sung than sent through fire

Didn't call, just stared

'Til the screen went black and I let go

Didn't speak, just learned

That some goodbyes are better left unknown

I write songs instead of typing out your name

'Cause some longing sounds much better

When it stays contained

Didn't call...

Just let you fade

Didn't call...

And I'm okay