JEALOUSY
An intense modern J-pop track fusing post-punk drive, jazz pop harmonies, and piano-driven math rock rhythms. Melancholic yet vibrant, it features yami kawaii undertones, playful synths from new rave, power pop hooks, and sudden vocal flips, including yodel-like passages, delivering a quirky, melodic, socially aware edge.
MEKA·3:42
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JEALOUSY
An intense modern J-pop track fusing post-punk drive, jazz pop harmonies, and piano-driven math rock rhythms. Melancholic yet vibrant, it features yami kawaii undertones, playful synths from new rave, power pop hooks, and sudden vocal flips, including yodel-like passages, delivering a quirky, melodic, socially aware edge.
Creator: MEKARelease Date: May 16, 2025
Lyrics
あーあ、
可愛く生まれたかったな〜
“ズルいよね？”とか言っちゃって
ほんとは羨ましいだけなのに
-
Ugh…
I wish I was born pretty.
I go around saying “she’s so fake,”
but the truth is—I’m just jealous.
ねぇ、どうせなら私じゃなくて
あの子に生まれたかった
優しい声で 笑って 何もかも許される
鏡の中の顔が嫌で
鏡の中の声も嫌で
羨ましい 羨ましい 羨ましい 羨ましい
全部壊したい
-
Hey, if I had the choice
I would’ve been born as her
With that soft voice, that smile, that ease
She gets away with everything
I hate the face I see in the mirror
I hate the voice that comes from it too
I’m jealous, I’m jealous, I’m jealous, I’m jealous
I wanna destroy everything
ちょっと濃いメイクで誤魔化して
わざとバカっぽく振る舞って
「可愛いね」って言われたいだけ
“好き”って言われたいだけ
努力じゃ勝てない才能なんて
冗談でしょ？ズルでしょ？
選ばれないことに慣れた顔で
今日もアイラインを引く
-
I hide behind heavy makeup
Act all dumb on purpose
I just wanna hear someone say, “you’re cute”
I just wanna feel wanted
And all that talent you can’t earn—
It’s a joke, right? That’s cheating, right?
I’ve gotten good at pretending not to care
as I draw eyeliner over tired eyes again
ねぇ、バレてた？最初から全部
妬みと演技で生きてたの
「性格キツそう」って正解〜！でも
本当は泣きたいだけ
憧れだった あの子みたいに
生まれ変われたら楽かな
嫌い 嫌い 嫌い 嫌い
…ほんとは好きだった
-
Hey… was it obvious? From the start?
That everything I did was jealousy and acting
“Wow, she seems mean” —Ding ding, you’re right!
But honestly… I just wanna cry
I used to look up to her so much
Would dying and being reborn fix me?
I hate her, I hate her, I hate her, I hate her
…No. I actually loved her.
「別に興味ないし」
ねぇ？（ねぇ？）
-
“I’m not jealous or anything”
Right? (Right?)
あの子の服、声、髪、愛され方
全部真似した
でも"あたし"って、どこ？
どこに居るの？
-
Her clothes, her voice, her hair, the way she’s loved—
I copied it all.
But “me”?
Where the hell am I?
ねぇ、もしも死んだら消えるかな
この醜い「わたし」ってやつ
壊してよ 壊してよ 壊してよ 壊してよ
綺麗な子に生まれたかっただけ
-
Hey…
if I died, would this disgusting “me” finally disappear?
Break it. Break it. Break it. Break it.
I just wanted to be born a pretty girl.
バレちゃった バレちゃった
「全部羨ましかったんです」
もう誰のフリも出来ない
わたしのままで
生きていけない
-
Oops. You found me.
“I was just jealous of everything.”
I can’t pretend to be anyone else now.
But I don’t know how
to live like this.
ねぇ、どうせなら私じゃなくて
誰でも良かったんだよ
あの子じゃなくても
あんなふうに愛されてみたかった
鏡の中で泣いてる顔
全部削ぎ落とせたらいいのに
“わたし”なんて
いらなかった
最初から
-
Hey, if it didn’t have to be me,
then honestly anyone else could’ve been fine
Not even her specifically
I just wanted to be loved like that
If I could scrape off this crying face in the mirror
If I could peel this skin away and find someone else
I wouldn’t need “me” at all
I never did
Not from the start.
可愛く生まれたかったな〜
“ズルいよね？”とか言っちゃって
ほんとは羨ましいだけなのに
-
Ugh…
I wish I was born pretty.
I go around saying “she’s so fake,”
but the truth is—I’m just jealous.
ねぇ、どうせなら私じゃなくて
あの子に生まれたかった
優しい声で 笑って 何もかも許される
鏡の中の顔が嫌で
鏡の中の声も嫌で
羨ましい 羨ましい 羨ましい 羨ましい
全部壊したい
-
Hey, if I had the choice
I would’ve been born as her
With that soft voice, that smile, that ease
She gets away with everything
I hate the face I see in the mirror
I hate the voice that comes from it too
I’m jealous, I’m jealous, I’m jealous, I’m jealous
I wanna destroy everything
ちょっと濃いメイクで誤魔化して
わざとバカっぽく振る舞って
「可愛いね」って言われたいだけ
“好き”って言われたいだけ
努力じゃ勝てない才能なんて
冗談でしょ？ズルでしょ？
選ばれないことに慣れた顔で
今日もアイラインを引く
-
I hide behind heavy makeup
Act all dumb on purpose
I just wanna hear someone say, “you’re cute”
I just wanna feel wanted
And all that talent you can’t earn—
It’s a joke, right? That’s cheating, right?
I’ve gotten good at pretending not to care
as I draw eyeliner over tired eyes again
ねぇ、バレてた？最初から全部
妬みと演技で生きてたの
「性格キツそう」って正解〜！でも
本当は泣きたいだけ
憧れだった あの子みたいに
生まれ変われたら楽かな
嫌い 嫌い 嫌い 嫌い
…ほんとは好きだった
-
Hey… was it obvious? From the start?
That everything I did was jealousy and acting
“Wow, she seems mean” —Ding ding, you’re right!
But honestly… I just wanna cry
I used to look up to her so much
Would dying and being reborn fix me?
I hate her, I hate her, I hate her, I hate her
…No. I actually loved her.
「別に興味ないし」
ねぇ？（ねぇ？）
-
“I’m not jealous or anything”
Right? (Right?)
あの子の服、声、髪、愛され方
全部真似した
でも"あたし"って、どこ？
どこに居るの？
-
Her clothes, her voice, her hair, the way she’s loved—
I copied it all.
But “me”?
Where the hell am I?
ねぇ、もしも死んだら消えるかな
この醜い「わたし」ってやつ
壊してよ 壊してよ 壊してよ 壊してよ
綺麗な子に生まれたかっただけ
-
Hey…
if I died, would this disgusting “me” finally disappear?
Break it. Break it. Break it. Break it.
I just wanted to be born a pretty girl.
バレちゃった バレちゃった
「全部羨ましかったんです」
もう誰のフリも出来ない
わたしのままで
生きていけない
-
Oops. You found me.
“I was just jealous of everything.”
I can’t pretend to be anyone else now.
But I don’t know how
to live like this.
ねぇ、どうせなら私じゃなくて
誰でも良かったんだよ
あの子じゃなくても
あんなふうに愛されてみたかった
鏡の中で泣いてる顔
全部削ぎ落とせたらいいのに
“わたし”なんて
いらなかった
最初から
-
Hey, if it didn’t have to be me,
then honestly anyone else could’ve been fine
Not even her specifically
I just wanted to be loved like that
If I could scrape off this crying face in the mirror
If I could peel this skin away and find someone else
I wouldn’t need “me” at all
I never did
Not from the start.