i know there’s something i forgave

written underneath my name

i’m trying to remember that

before i live in vain

​[verse 1]

i arrived here

empty-handed

baby bracelet

paper name

fresh beginning

felt like terms of service

clicked agree in a rush

then forgot it

​[chorus 1]

i know i swore before the dawn

under a name i can’t recall

to love like i was being watched

by every soul i’ve ever wronged

i know there’s something i forgave

before i ever felt this pain

i’m trying to remember that

before it means nothing

​[verse 2]

all stations

take the wrong tubes

all these bargains

small and cheap

but some nights

i hear a whisper

in the quiet

right before it says

​[bridge 1: spoken]

“you promised you’d be braver

you’ve been here like this before”

​[chorus 2]

i know i swore before the dawn

under a name i can’t recall

to walk back in when i got lost

to keep my heart from growing small

i know there’s something i forgave

before i ever tasted shame

i’m trying to remember that

before i die unseen

​[bridge 2: spoken, whispered]

maybe it was just this:

hold a stranger like a friend

tell the truth when it is hardest

start again

and then again

​[final chorus]

i know i swore before the dawn

under a name i can’t recall

to leave this place a little softer

than it was when i was called

i know there’s something i forgave

written underneath my name

i’m trying to remember that

before i fade in vain

(i’m trying to remember that)

before i die in vain