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風になりたい

本気の本気で

誰の目にも映らない

あの風のように自由に

吹き抜けたい

時に激しく、時に暖かく

始まりも帰る場所も

拍手も理解も

ただ吹き抜けて

安らぎの鐘を

一度だけ鳴らせたら

そんな夢の続き

考えていた朝のスマホの通知

「すみません、発熱で…」

「インフル陽性でした…」

「今日もお休みいただきます…」

欠員の数だけ

業務がこちらへ

風向きはなぜか

常に私にだけ向いている

咳ひとつ出ない

鼻も詰まらない、熱もない

この無駄に元気な身体が

今日はやけに恨めしい

風になりたいなんて

言ったけれど

本当は

風邪になりたい

誰かの代わりに

休む理由が喉の奥に欲しい

「無理です」が

診断書になる世界で

自由じゃなくていい

透明じゃなくていい

ただ一日だけ

お布団と許可が欲しい

吹き抜けなくていい

ここに倒れていたい

健康な自分が

いちばん風当たりが強い

だから今日も

元気なまま出社する

風にはなれず

風邪にもなれず

書類の山だけが

よく流れ着くデスク

風邪になりたい

本気の本気の本気で

うん、割りと本気で

「帰り、御見舞持ってくか」

【In Japanese, “wind” and “a cold (illness)” are pronounced the same way: kaze.

They use different kanji, but the sound is identical, which makes wordplay like this possible.】

I want to be the wind

Dead serious.

Serious, serious, serious.

Like that wind

no one ever notices,

I want to blow through freely—

sometimes violent,

sometimes warm.

No beginning,

no place to return to,

no applause,

no understanding.

Just passing through,

if I could ring

a single bell of peace

just once.

That was the dream

I was still half-thinking about

when my phone buzzed that morning.

“Sorry, I’ve got a fever…”

“Tested positive for the flu…”

“I’ll need to take today off…”

With every absence,

the work drifts my way.

The wind direction, somehow,

is always pointed at me.

Not a single cough.

No runny nose, no fever.

This uselessly healthy body of mine

feels especially hateful today.

I said I wanted to be the wind,

but honestly,

what I really want

is to catch a cold.

I want a reason to rest

lodged somewhere in my throat,

a world where

“I can’t”

turns into a doctor’s note.

I don’t need freedom.

I don’t need to be invisible.

Just for one day,

I want a futon

and permission.

I don’t need to blow through—

I want to collapse right here.

Being healthy

has the harshest headwinds of all.

So today again,

I go to work

perfectly fine.

Not the wind,

not even a cold,

just piles of paperwork

drifting gently

onto my desk.

I want to be sick.

Dead serious.

Serious, serious, serious—

yeah, honestly,

pretty serious.

“…Should I bring something

as a get-well gift on the way home?”