앞을 비추라는 빛을, 나는 나에게 비췄어.
하얗게 잃어버린 시야 끝에서, 밤이 천천히 길을 열어줘.

I pointed the light meant for the road… at myself.
In the white-out, the night slowly returns my sight—and becomes my path.

前を照らすはずの光を、僕は自分に向けてしまった。
ホワイトアウトの果てで、夜がゆっくり道を開いてくれる。


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눈앞에 손전등 하나가 있었어
앞을 비추라는 지시였지
도와주려는 빛이었지

하지만, 그때 나에겐 달랐어
하나만… 받지 않았어
도움을 받기보다
혼자 나아가길 바랬던 걸까

왜 그랬을까
앞을 비추라 했는데
나는 나를 비췄어

전부 하얘서
더 안 보여

그때의 난, 내가 밝히길 바랬을까
내가 비추고 싶어졌던 걸까
손전등으로 앞을 비추지 않고
나를 비추며, 그 빛을
바라만 봤어

왜 나를 비췄을까
앞을 비추라 했는데
왜 나를 비췄을까

모두 잔상만 남기고
사라졌어

주변의 색들이 사라지고
모두 같은 색이 되고
하얗게 변했어
하얗게, 시야를 잃었어

그때 난…
피하려 했던 어둠을
눈을 감아, 찾아버렸어

잠시 눈을 감고 떠보니
내 시야에는
모두의 잔상만이 남았어
이미 지나간 모두의
자리만 남았더라고

난 그저 밝아지길
바랬을 뿐인데…
그냥 백색이었어

그렇게 나는
남아있는 자리만 따라다니다
어둠을 그리워했어

모두가 나를 떠난 줄 알았어

왜 나만 비추려 했던 건지…
앞을 비추라 했는데
나만 비추다
모두가 흐려, 사라졌어

나만 남았어

시간은 계속 흘러가는데
난 아직, 그 자리였어

어느덧 시간이 지나
밤이 나를 찾아왔어
난 밤을 바라보지 못했지

은은한 빛이
나를 감싸안아도
난 몰랐어…

보이지가 않았거든

그러다… 어느 순간이었을까

어둡기만 하던 밤의 빛들이
조금씩 보이기 시작했어
시간이 지날수록
선명하진 않지만
조금씩… 더 잘 보이더라

그때서야
보이는 것들도 있었어

빛을 바랬을 터인데
나에게 더 보여준 건
어두운 밤이었어

[Instrumental]

지금, 또다시
내 앞에 손전등이 있어

이번엔…
앞을 비추려 해

하지만, 이번엔 달라
밤에 천천히 스며드는 빛으로
앞을 비추려 해.

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A flashlight was right in front of my eyes
They told me to light the way ahead
It was a light meant to help

But back then, it felt different to me
I didn’t take that one thing…
Maybe I wanted, more than anything,
to keep moving on alone

Why did I do that?
They said, “shine it forward,”
but I shone it on myself

Everything turned white—
and I couldn’t see anymore

Back then… did I want to be the one who lights it?
Did I start wanting to be the one who shines?
Instead of lighting the path ahead,
I pointed it at myself
and only stared at its light

Why did I shine it on me?
They said, “shine it forward,”
so why did I shine it on me?

Leaving nothing but afterimages,
everything disappeared

All the colors around me faded away
until everything became the same shade
It turned white
and I lost my sight in that whiteness

And then I…
I closed my eyes
and found the darkness I once tried to avoid

When I closed them, then opened them again,
all I could see
were afterimages—
the places where everyone used to be
and already had passed

I only wished it would get brighter…
but it wasn’t “bright”—
it was just white

So I followed
only what was left behind,
and started missing the dark

I thought everyone had left me

Why did I try to light only myself…
They said, “shine it forward,”
but I kept shining it on me
until everything blurred,
until everything vanished

And only I remained

Time kept moving on,
but I was still… right there

And after a while,
night came looking for me
But I couldn’t face the night

Even when a gentle light
wrapped around me,
I didn’t know…

Because I couldn’t see

And then…
when was it?

In that night that felt only dark,
tiny lights started to appear
As time passed,
they weren’t clear—
but I could see them a little more,
little by little

And only then
I began to notice things I couldn’t before

I thought I wanted light—
but what showed me more
was the dark night

[Instrumental]

Now, once again,
there’s a flashlight in front of me

This time…
I’ll shine it forward

But this time, it’s different
With a light that slowly seeps into the night,
I’ll light the way ahead


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目の前に 懐中電灯がひとつあった
前を照らせと 指示された
助けようとする 光だった

でも あの時の僕には 違って見えた
そのひとつだけ…受け取らなかった
助けてもらうより
ひとりで進みたかったのかな

どうして そうしたんだろう
前を照らせと言われたのに
僕は 僕を照らしてしまった

全部が白くなって
何も見えなくなった

あの時の僕は
自分で照らしたかったのかな
自分が光になりたかったのかな
懐中電灯で前を照らさずに
自分を照らして
その光を ただ見つめていた

どうして 僕を照らしたんだろう
前を照らせと言われたのに
どうして 僕を照らしたんだろう

残ったのは 残像だけ
全部 消えていった

周りの色が消えて
全部 同じ色になって
白く変わって
白いまま 視界を失った

その時 僕は…
避けていた闇を
目を閉じて 探してしまった

少し目を閉じて 開いてみたら
僕の視界には
みんなの残像だけが残っていた
もう過ぎ去った みんなの
場所だけが 残っていたんだ

ただ明るくなればいいと
願っただけなのに…
それは“明るさ”じゃなくて
ただの白だった

だから僕は
残った場所だけを辿りながら
闇を恋しがっていた

みんなが僕を置いていったと
思ってしまった

どうして僕だけを照らそうとしたんだろう…
前を照らせと言われたのに
僕だけを照らし続けて
全部がぼやけて 消えていって
僕だけが残った

時間は流れていくのに
僕は まだ あの場所にいた

気づけば 時が過ぎて
夜が 僕を訪ねてきた
でも 僕は夜を見られなかった

淡い光が
僕を包み込んでも
僕は気づけなかった…

見えなかったんだ

そして…
いつからだろう

暗いだけだった夜の光が
少しずつ 見え始めた
時間が経つほど
はっきりじゃないけれど
少しずつ… もっと見えるようになった

その時になってやっと
見えるものもあった

光を望んでいたはずなのに
僕にもっと見せてくれたのは
暗い夜だった

[Instrumental]

今 また
目の前に 懐中電灯がある

今度は…
前を照らそう

でも 今度は違う
夜にゆっくり染み込む光で
前を照らそう