[Verse 1]

「大丈夫」ってね、便利だよね
包帯より隠せるもん
鼓膜じゃ聞こえないSOS
読唇術でも足りないみたい

部屋の中で一番うるさいの、
自分の脳内だけだよ？

“I'm fine”—what a convenient phrase
Covers more than any bandage ever could
My SOS doesn’t reach your ears
Not even lip-reading could help, huh?

The loudest thing in my whole room
is still just the noise inside my head

[Pre-Chorus 1]

「寝て忘れろ」って言われたから
三日間、目を開けてた

They told me, “Just sleep it off.”
So I kept my eyes open for three straight days

[Chorus 1]

失踪癖の言い訳は
「ちゃんと生きてる」って証明だった
だけどこの身体、
誰かが脱ぎ捨てたスキンみたいで
戻りたくても帰れない
居場所？あったけど捨てちゃった
追いつけない世界、笑っちゃうね
消え方すらも才能じゃん？

Disappearing was just my excuse
to prove I was still “alive” somehow
But this body feels more like a skin
someone else peeled off and left behind
Even if I wanted to return—
Where to? I had a place once
but I threw it away
The world moves too fast—it’s laughable, really
Even vanishing takes talent now, huh?

[Post-Chorus 1]

呼んでないのに名前だけ　ラタタタタ

Didn’t call for me—just said my name anyway
ra-ta-ta-ta-ta

[Verse 2]

通知切って、未読スルー
既読ついたらごめんなさいってなるし
「死にたい」は隠語だし
「助けて」は罪悪感をくれる薬

人間失格って呼ばれたけど、
最初からそんな教科なかったし

Turned off my notifs, left the messages unread
Because if you saw I saw it, I’d owe you an apology
“Wanna die” is just coded talk
“Help me” is a pill that comes with guilt

They called me defective
but nobody ever taught that class to begin with

[Pre-Chorus 2]

止めてほしいって、言えなかった
だって止められたくなかったから

I couldn’t ask you to stop me—
because deep down,
I didn’t want to be stopped

[Chorus 2]

笑い方すら忘れちゃって
テンプレリアクションだけ残って
SNSで自撮りあげて
「今日も生きててえらいね」ってさ
誰かの言葉をコピペして
今日の自分を貼り付けただけ
病んでるって言えば済むんだろ？
ねえ、それって救いになるの？

I forgot how to laugh for real
Only the auto-replies are left
Posted a selfie, captioned:
“You did great just by living today~”
I pasted someone else’s words
and called that “me”
If I say I’m mentally ill, does that fix it?
Tell me—
is that what you call salvation?

[Post-Chorus 2]

ずっと演技で息してた　ラタタタタ

I’ve been breathing in character this whole time
ra-ta-ta-ta-ta

[Bridge]

優しさが痛かった
信じてるよ？って言われるたびに
喉の奥で鉄の味がして
「頑張れ」が全部、殺し文句みたいでさ

占いみたいに胃液眺めて
"生きてる理由"探してたけど
この涙、嘘じゃなかったのに
どうして誰も気づけなかったの？

Kindness hurt more than silence
Every “I believe in you” tasted like metal
And every “stay strong”
felt like a loaded threat

I stared into bile like fortune-telling
trying to find a reason to live
These tears weren’t fake
So why didn’t anyone notice?

[Build]

失踪癖の言い訳は
「ちゃんと生きてる」って証明だった
だけどこの身体、
誰かが脱ぎ捨てたスキンみたいで…

Disappearing was just my excuse
to prove I was still “alive” somehow
But this body feels more like a skin
someone else peeled off and left behind...

[Final Chorus]

失踪癖の処方箋は
もう残ってないんだ、ごめんね
希望は甘すぎて吐いたし
絶望は慣れすぎて味しない
帰る場所が「もし」だったら
今さら歩けるわけないでしょ
救ってくれるならさ、
「消えるな」って一度でよかったのに

There’s no prescription left for this disappearing habit
Sorry, I ran out
Hope was too sweet—it made me gag
Despair’s too bland—it’s got no taste anymore
If “home” was just a maybe
then there’s nowhere I can walk back to
If you really wanted to save me
then one time was enough
You just had to say
“Don’t disappear.”

[Refrain]

誰のせいかは聞かないで　ラタタタタ

Don’t ask whose fault it was
ra-ta-ta-ta-ta