The depression’s hitting harder tonight

Like a bruise that never fades

Like silence pressing into my lungs

Until I forget how to breathe

I sit in the dark and don’t move

Not because I’m calm

But because I’m gone

And I don’t know how to come back

I don’t want to be alive today

Not in this body

Not in this mind

I’m not asking to be saved

I just want the noise to stop

Just for a minute

Just long enough to rest

Without fear

They say it’s dramatic

But they’ve never heard their own thoughts

Screaming like sirens

When all they wanted was quiet

I’m not looking for hope

I’m not asking for light

I just want to feel

Nothing

For once

I don’t want to be alive today

Not in this house

Not in this skin

I’m not strong

I’m just still here

And maybe

That means something

Even if it’s just for tonight

This isn’t a cry for help

It’s a confession

I’m breaking

I’m tired

I just want it to end

But I’m still here

I don’t want to be alive today

But I haven’t let go

I’m still breathing

Even if I don’t know why

I’m still here

That means something

Even if it’s just

For tonight