Clueless
dark alt-R&B, intimate baritone lead, stacked choir hooks, breathy ad-lib doubles, detuned sub-bass, muted electric piano, tremolo guitar swells, snapped rimshot beat, sparse kick pattern, granular vocal delay, room mic ambience, basement memory, bruised catharsis, minor key progression, high pitched
Clueless
dark alt-R&B, intimate baritone lead, stacked choir hooks, breathy ad-lib doubles, detuned sub-bass, muted electric piano, tremolo guitar swells, snapped rimshot beat, sparse kick pattern, granular vocal delay, room mic ambience, basement memory, bruised catharsis, minor key progression, high pitched
Lyrics
Verse 1
Seven years old,
I still remember
Down in the basement
Yelling out for help, but
No one answered me
Like they didn’t hear a thing
And it felt like God was silent too
Like I was never anything
Pre-Chorus
I grew up fast, but I stayed afraid
Learned how to smile just to hide the pain
They told me time would heal the scars
But mine just learned to stay
Chorus
Why is life so hard?
Why is life so cruel?
They said, "you’ll get it when you’re older"
But I’m older now
And I still feel like a fool
Why is life this hard?
Why does life still hurt?
They said, "when you’re older, you’ll get it"
But I’m older now
And it’s only getting worse
Verse 2
Twenty-two now,
still feel the same
Different room but
I still carry that pain
Bills on the table,
fake smiles in the mirror
Everybody’s moving forward
but the ending feels nearer
I drink down the nights
just to sleep a little better
But the dark in my chest
only pulls me in forever
And I hear that little kid
when the world gets quiet
Still asking for a hand
but nobody comes by it
Pre-Chorus
I try to talk but the words don’t land
It’s like my heart was never meant to understand
They say I’ll find myself someday
But I don’t know who I am
Chorus
Why is life so hard?
Why is life so cruel?
They said, "you’ll get it when you’re older"
But I’m older now
And I still feel like a fool
Why is life this hard?
Why does life still hurt?
They said, "when you’re older, you’ll get it"
But I’m older now
And it’s only getting worse
Bridge
Who do I ask for help
If even God won’t hear me?
Who do I run to now
When I’m drowning this deeply?
I’ve been praying in the dark
Till my voice turned to silence
If Heaven never answers
What’s the point of trying?
And if nobody’s coming
Then tell me what to do
‘Cause I’m tired of surviving
With nothing to hold on to
Final Chorus
Why is life so hard?
Why is life so cruel?
They said, "you’ll get it when you’re older"
But I’m older now
And I still feel like a fool
Why is life this hard?
Why does life still hurt?
They said, "when you’re older, you’ll get it"
But I’m older now
And it’s only getting worse
Outro
I’m older now…
but I still don’t get it.