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“Everyone says it gets better.

They never say when.

They never say how.”

I wake up already exhausted

Didn’t sleep, just paused the pain

Opened my eyes like a chore

Another day I gotta fake

They say “time heals everything”

That’s said by people who left

Time didn’t heal shit

It just taught me where to shelf the mess

I thought growing up meant clarity

Turns out it’s learning to lie

Calling survival “discipline”

So I don’t ask myself why

I didn’t quit my dreams dramatic

I watched them get priced out

Hope turned into a luxury

I couldn’t justify now

Bills stacked taller than courage

Responsibility dressed as doubt

I’m not depressed, I’m realistic

About what this life costs now

They said “follow your heart”

My heart don’t cover rent

They said “trust the process”

Never defined what it meant

Is this living or just maintenance?

Keeping damage under control

I don’t feel broken, just postponed

Like a life put on hold by the cost of hope

If I stop pretending I’m okay

Does everything I built collapse?

Am I healing, or just really good

At hiding cracks behind facts?

I’ve seen winners feel embarrassed

Like success exposed the lie

I’ve seen failure build more character

Than anything money could buy

I’ve seen love turn contractual

“I stay as long as it works”

I’ve seen happiness become a task

Another shift, another perk

They don’t break you all at once

They just teach you how to cope

Growing up just means

You learn which dreams are socially acceptable

We edit life into highlights

Crop out the days we decay

Most of us live in the middle

Where nothing improves, it just stays

I don’t want fame or a legacy

I want a room where I can breathe

‘Cause applause don’t mean nothing

If I can’t stand the person that’s me

Maybe purpose isn’t progress

Maybe it’s staying intact

In a world that keeps rewarding

Whoever adapts by going numb

Is this life or survival training?

Am I free or just well-behaved?

If I live the way they trained me

Will I recognize my face?

I don’t need a happy ending

I just need this shit to be honest

If I give my whole life to this

I wanna know I actually lived it

I don’t have answers.

I just stopped calling numbness peace.