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[voice sampling]
“Everyone says it gets better.
They never say when.
They never say how.”

[beat drop]

[Verse 1]
I wake up already exhausted
Didn’t sleep, just paused the pain
Opened my eyes like a chore
Another day I gotta fake
They say “time heals everything”
That’s said by people who left
Time didn’t heal shit
It just taught me where to shelf the mess
I thought growing up meant clarity
Turns out it’s learning to lie
Calling survival “discipline”
So I don’t ask myself why
I didn’t quit my dreams dramatic
I watched them get priced out
Hope turned into a luxury
I couldn’t justify now
Bills stacked taller than courage
Responsibility dressed as doubt
I’m not depressed, I’m realistic
About what this life costs now

[Pre-Chorus]
They said “follow your heart”
My heart don’t cover rent
They said “trust the process”
Never defined what it meant

[Chorus]
Is this living or just maintenance?
Keeping damage under control
I don’t feel broken, just postponed
Like a life put on hold by the cost of hope
If I stop pretending I’m okay
Does everything I built collapse?
Am I healing, or just really good
At hiding cracks behind facts?

[Verse 2]
I’ve seen winners feel embarrassed
Like success exposed the lie
I’ve seen failure build more character
Than anything money could buy
I’ve seen love turn contractual
“I stay as long as it works”
I’ve seen happiness become a task
Another shift, another perk
They don’t break you all at once
They just teach you how to cope
Growing up just means
You learn which dreams are socially acceptable
We edit life into highlights
Crop out the days we decay
Most of us live in the middle
Where nothing improves, it just stays
I don’t want fame or a legacy
I want a room where I can breathe
‘Cause applause don’t mean nothing
If I can’t stand the person that’s me

[Bridge]
Maybe purpose isn’t progress
Maybe it’s staying intact
In a world that keeps rewarding
Whoever adapts by going numb

[Chorus]
Is this life or survival training?
Am I free or just well-behaved?
If I live the way they trained me
Will I recognize my face?
I don’t need a happy ending
I just need this shit to be honest
If I give my whole life to this
I wanna know I actually lived it

[Outro]
I don’t have answers.
I just stopped calling numbness peace.