When I woke in the morning

I fell to my knees

Another day older

Yet never the wiser

The things you chose to do

The people you chose to see

Matters not to me anymore

You told me sweet lies

Whispered in our bed

Tales the pillow won't repeat

But my brain won't let me sleep

The memories of us happy

Play on an endless loop

As well as all the pain

We were too blind to stop

I loved you too deeply

Poured in my all

Next time I'll think harder

And hope that this time

She loves me for who I am

Im sorry that I couldn't be

Exactly what you needed from me

I gave you everything I could

And yet I still fell short.

The pain of this rejection

The heartache of it all

Might do me harm if I continue

Willfully abandoning my wants

My needs regressing

As I become consumed

In my grief and my despair

Ive had this tale to tell

And now its been complete

So when I wake in the morning

And I fall down on my knees

I pray to the gods you dont find me

Youre the last person I want to see

I hope you get just what you deserve

That karma gives you just desserts

And I hope it tastes like shit

How can you be happy now?

Tearing my heart in 2

Ive realized that all that love

Quickly melted to hate

A red hot iron in my throat

Everytime I think of you

How could I not be enough?

I gave you all I could

I loved you when you didnt even love yourself

I held your hand through hard times

And in joy

The first chance you got

You pushed me away

Now all I can do is remember

The worst April ever.