Loaded
The track melds industrial heavy metal, grindcore, and neopunk, launching with syncopated, pulsing percussion and deep bass lines. Verses sway between sorrowful sadcore textures, lush synth undercurrents, and raspy, soulful male growls. Dramatic buildups with evocative glissandi transition to soaring post-core choruses, culminating in fierce, electric solos. The heartbeat motif persists in shifts, driving intense crescendos and dynamic interplay between aggressive guitar, bass, and raw vocals. Vocals: Deep bass raspy male lead vocal, chest to head transition, jazz vibrato, glissandi, belting, screaming, growling.
Loaded
The track melds industrial heavy metal, grindcore, and neopunk, launching with syncopated, pulsing percussion and deep bass lines. Verses sway between sorrowful sadcore textures, lush synth undercurrents, and raspy, soulful male growls. Dramatic buildups with evocative glissandi transition to soaring post-core choruses, culminating in fierce, electric solos. The heartbeat motif persists in shifts, driving intense crescendos and dynamic interplay between aggressive guitar, bass, and raw vocals. Vocals: Deep bass raspy male lead vocal, chest to head transition, jazz vibrato, glissandi, belting, screaming, growling.
Lyrics
Intro
Static starts where thoughts begin
Every silence starts like a thunder,
Light bends down and fades away,
As the night devours the day
Verse 1
My mind is a loaded gun,
(Counting seconds till it’s done)
Loaded with thoughts I can’t outrun,
(They form and vanish in a breath)
Grief and guilt fill up my bullets,
(Burning silver in my veins)
But I never pull the trigger...
(Still I dream of emptiness and calm)
Chorus
My mind is a loaded gun,
(Loaded, waiting, never done)
But I never pull the trigger,
(I just breathe in and breathe out)
Still I dream of letting go,
(One thought away from dead)
While my soul screams in pain...
(and the echoes resonate)
Verse 2
At times I sit and watch my world come undone,
(Watch it crumble, one by one)
Shadows laugh at what I’ve become,
(They whisper, “you were never real”)
Screams and echoes of screams surround me,
(In the hollow, where I hide)
But I stay numb — while anger grows... and then fades.
(And fades... and fades...)
Chorus
My mind is a loaded gun,
(Loaded, waiting, never done)
But I never pull the trigger,
(I just breathe in and breathe out)
Still I dream of letting go,
(One thought away from dead)
While my soul screams in pain...
(and the echoes resonate)
(and the echoes resonate)
Break – guitar instrumental
Verse 3
The safety’s on, but my hands still shake,
(Tension crawls through my veins)
(Just ghosts that wear my name)
Pain carved my name on the handle of my gun,
(Etched in sorrow, deep and black)
While my mind screams, I pretend silence is forgiveness.
And if I rotate the barrel’s dream,
I will hear the click inside my mind,
A lullaby in minor key
“Not yet, not yet, not yet...NOW!”
Chorus
My mind is a loaded gun,
(Loaded, waiting, never done)
But I never pull the trigger,
(I just breathe in and breathe out)
Still I dream of letting go,
(One thought away from dead)
While my soul screams in pain...
(and the echoes resonate)
Intermission – piano in minor key
Verse 4
Reflections I can’t trust, they fracture in the diamond dust,
(Broken diamonds remember me)
My faith corrodes, my hope turns rust,
(It bleeds in symmetry)
And though I swear I won’t surrender,
(I still dream beneath the weight)
Sometimes I see the barrel glimmer —
(and whisper... “maybe fate will do.”)
Outro
My mind is a loaded gun...
Dissolving in the into the dark of time.
I start to forget what it was made of
But I am still waiting... still waiting...
(still waiting)
Still waiting
CLICK!
Sound of a gunshot, FX
End