I wear my best "I don't care" smile

Stand on the edge like it's just for a while

But the wind's already picking up

Your eyes are shattered glass, crystal-cut

You ask how I’ve been, I say, “I’m good”

Like the thunder doesn’t rattle where I stood

You’re dry on the deck, a bottle in your hand

While I’m ankle-deep in your quicksand

I keep thinking this’ll be the time

It’s just a breeze, just a line

But the sky pulls tight, the clouds roll down

And I forget to say no

And I forget to say NO

I dip a toe in your broken hurricane

Smile like I’m not soaked in filthy shame

Say, “don’t worry, I’m just passing through”

While my lungs fill up with you

No expectations, just the undertow

Just the churn and the crash and the cut

I say it’s fine, I always do

But god, I’m choking in the sight of you

Your hand grazes mine, like it’s just a joke

I laugh along, but I still choke

You mention her name and I flinch too late

Try to pass it off as just a twist of fate

I sip your words like poisoned lemonade

Bittersweet, but I stay, I stay

The wind in my throat, the rain in my chest

And a heart that refuses to rest

You never promise, I never ask

We both pretend I’m not wearing a mask

You say "come over," I say "where?"

And the sky splits open like a scar

Yeah, the sky splits open like it’s done this before

I dip a toe in your broken hurricane

Lie like I’m not twisted in the brain

Say, “don’t worry, it’s all in my head”

While I drown in every word you said

No expectations, just the undertow

Just the ache I’ve made my norm

I say it’s fine, I always do

But god, I'm bleeding just loving you