[Verse 1]

やりたい事なんて聞かれたくない
欲しがる癖に、全部諦める癖
笑えたらいいね、じゃなくて
「笑えるように見えてたら」って、正しいかもね

スキンケアより「存在」の方が乾いてる
別に誰かに触れてほしい訳じゃないけど
上手くいった日ほど、怖い
“自分じゃない”って思っちゃうの、なんで？

Don’t ask me what I want to do
I want everything—just really good at giving up
“Would be nice if I could smile,” no—
More like, “if I look like I’m smiling,” that’s probably closer

My “existence” is drier than my skin
Not like I want anyone to touch me or anything
But the better my day goes, the scarier it feels
Why do I keep thinking, “this isn’t me”?

[Pre-Chorus 1]

誰も傷つけたくないって思って
鏡の自分を毎日殺してる
“頑張ってるよ”の言い訳が
首を絞めるようになった

I didn’t want to hurt anyone
So I kill my reflection every day
The excuse of “I’m doing my best”
Started to feel like I’m choking on it

[Refrain 1]

「また逃げたね」
…うるさいよ。

“You ran away again.”
…shut up.

[Chorus 1]

So FAKEOUT, let go fakeout
息を吸って、生きたフリばっかしてる私って誰？

So FAKEOUT, cheers to fakeout
「幸せになりたい」って願った日を黒歴史にしただけ

so clap one two, die for you,
ご褒美みたいな苦しみに慣れたの、ほんと最悪〜

So FAKEOUT, let go fakeout
Breathing in, living like I’m just pretending—who even is “me”?

So FAKEOUT, cheers to fakeout
Wishing to be happy just turned into another blacked-out memory

So clap one two, die for you,
I got used to pain dressed up like praise—it’s honestly the worst~

[Verse 2]

名前呼ばれるだけで目眩する
でも誰にも呼ばれない時はもっと怖い
“存在証明”って血か数字でしかできないなら
どっちも流してみたけど、空っぽだった

「大丈夫」ってラベル貼って
痛みの上にスプレーして
感情の修復ミス、報告済み
でも再起動してまた現場だよ、馬鹿みたい

Just hearing my name makes me dizzy
But it’s worse when no one calls me at all
If I can only prove I exist with blood or numbers
I tried both—and ended up empty

I slap a “I’m fine” label on
Spray it over the ache
Error report: emotions not found
But I reboot and drag myself back to work—like an idiot

[Pre-Chorus 2]

一人じゃないって言葉が
一番一人を感じさせた
好きな人を憎んで、
自分を慰めて、壊れてくだけ

The words “you’re not alone”
Made me feel lonelier than ever
I started hating the ones I love
Just to comfort myself and fall apart slower

[Refrain 2]

もっとちゃんと
壊れたかった。

I wish I could’ve
Broken properly.

[Chorus 2]

So FAKEOUT, let go fakeout (fakeout)
息を吸って、生きたフリばっかしてる私って誰？

So FAKEOUT, cheers to fakeout (fakeout)
「幸せになりたい」って願った日を黒歴史にしただけ

so clap one two, die for you,
自分を守る方法は、死ぬフリしかなかったよ

So FAKEOUT, let go fakeout (fakeout)
Breathing in, living like I’m just pretending—who even is “me”?

So FAKEOUT, cheers to fakeout (fakeout)
Wishing to be happy just turned into another blacked-out memory

So clap one two, die for you,
The only way I knew how to protect myself was to fake being dead

[Breakdown]

i don't know who i was
i don't know who i AM
PUT A SMILE ON—DO IT AGAIN
cut me up to fit your plan!!

"you're okay"—NO I'M NOT
"just be strong"—FUCKING STOP
THIS ISN'T GROWTH
THIS ISN'T HOPE
THIS IS ME, ROTTING IN A MASK YOU LOVE.

[Bridge]

もう戻れないことは知ってる
それでも、たまに…思うんだ
「なりたかったのは誰？」
「今の私は、欲しかった人？」
カレンダーにしか残らない今日が
まだ、私を殺してくれない

I know I can’t go back
But still… sometimes I wonder
“Who was I trying to become?”
“Is the ‘me’ now who I ever wanted?”
Today won’t even be remembered outside the calendar
And yet… it still won’t kill me

[Build]

So FAKEOUT, let go fakeout (fakeout)
意味のない嘘が、一番優しかったね

So FAKEOUT, cheers to fakeout (fakeout)
誰にもバレないまま、消えたかっただけ

So FAKEOUT, let go fakeout (fakeout)
The lies that meant nothing… were somehow the kindest ones

So FAKEOUT, cheers to fakeout (fakeout)
All I ever wanted was to vanish without anyone noticing

[Final Chorus]

So FAKEOUT, let go fakeout (fakeout)
息を吸って、生きたフリばっかしてる私って誰？

So FAKEOUT, cheers to fakeout (fakeout)
「幸せになりたい」って願った日を黒歴史にしただけ

so clap one two, die for you,
演じた自分より、本音で嫌われたいよ

So FAKEOUT, let go fakeout (fakeout)
Breathing in, living like I’m just pretending—who even is “me”?

So FAKEOUT, cheers to fakeout (fakeout)
Wishing to be happy just turned into another blacked-out memory

So clap one two, die for you,
I’d rather be hated for what’s real than loved for the fake I play