The door is closed but nothing ended

The silence breathes, the mind is splintered

A twisted tune still ticks in time

Tiny teeth inside my spine

The music box keeps turning slow

Each note a lie I used to know

I chose a voice, I chose a side

It only learned how best to hide

Stay still, stay soft, don’t raise your hands

This song was written to command

It keeps you small, it keeps you pure

It keeps you safe, it keeps you sure

Safe is just a prettier cage

You’ve memorized it page by page

That lullaby is how they train

Obedience dressed up as grace

You don’t need fire to be seen

You don’t need teeth, you don’t need obscene

Let him come to you, don’t chase

Let patience save your face

He felt me when you held your breath

He leaned toward danger, not restraint

That melody didn’t slow his heart

It’s the part of you that tears it apart

You are hunger without a name

A scream pretending to be brave

If I let you pull the thread

I disappear, I’m something else

You are a ghost that learned to smile

You rot politely, stay worthwhile

That song taught you to wait your turn

While I learned exactly how to burn

The box keeps clicking, closer, tight

Winding guilt into delight

Every note is cutting in

A chorus crawling under skin

Stop fighting, feel the calm

Let the music rock you numb

You’ll lose him if you bare too much

You’ll scare him with that filthy touch

He already heard the crack inside

When the tune skipped, when I lied

Even the song couldn’t stay in key

When he looked straight through you and me

I feel you climbing through my jaw

Each word a blade, each breath a flaw

We’re singing over one another now

Neither of us backing down

You call it control, I call it fear

You shake every time he’s near

You’d rather ache and stay intact

Than risk the want you can’t take back

You call it want, I call it need

An open wound that has to feed

You’d burn the house to feel alive

And call it truth if we survive

The melody is slowing wrong

Dragging us both through the song

Childhood teeth, cathedral bones

A prayer stitched into a moan

Say his name and let it clash

Halo hymns and broken glass

Say it sweet, say it vile

Let both mouths speak at the same time

Say it clean, say it loud

Say it begging, say it proud

Let the harmony rot and scream

Until there’s no in-between

I am not your enemy

I am the part that still feels free

I am the voice that ruins songs

When pretty lies go on too long

And I am not your cage or past

I am the lock that makes you last

Without me you’re a moment’s heat

A starving pulse with sharpened teeth

The box is cracking, tempo bends

The lullaby forgets its end

Both of us choking on the sound

As innocence is buried underground

Gears grind like prayers gone wrong

Steel strings wrapped around the song

Five voices bleeding into one

No verdict left, nowhere to run

So let it break, let it scream

Let it tear the seam between

If only one of us can live

I’ll choose the truth I can’t forgive

The music stops.

The silence bites.

And something inside me finally decides.