I need the antidote

I need the antidote

Something real inside my bones

I need the antidote

There’s a noise

in my head

won’t go quiet

won’t reset

I rewrote

every line

still I lost

what was mine

I became

what I hate

just a shadow

out of place

Now I stand

next to me

watching who

I used to be

How far

can I go

before I don’t

feel at all

I need the antidote

I need the antidote

Every truth I ever wrote

turned to something I can’t hold

I need the antidote

I need the antidote

Tell me I’m not alone

even if it’s just a lie

Every fix

every try

only pushed

me aside

Every door

that I made

led me back

to the same

I keep running

in place

same mistakes

different face

How long

can I stay

in a voice

that isn’t mine

I need the antidote

I need the antidote

Every word I overdose

till I feel nothing at all

I need the antidote

I need the antidote

If there’s anything that’s real

let it break me into truth

If I fall

I fall alone

If I speak

no one knows

I fed silence

till it grew

Now it sounds

just like truth

Maybe laughter is the antidote

But I only know how to laugh through tears

I need the antidote

I need the antidote

Something real inside my bones

I need the antidote

I need the antidote

I need the antidote

Even if it lets me break

I need the antidote