I sit in my room at night

I think about what I should say to you

I open our old messages

But I don’t type anything

You are still in my mind

Even when I try to stop it

I know what I feel

But I don’t say it out loud

I see your name on my screen

My hands stop moving

I start writing a message

Then I delete it again

I want to tell you the truth

But I stay silent every time

I cannot say it to you

I keep it inside every day

I cannot tell you how I feel

So I stay quiet again

You don’t know what I think

You don’t know what I feel

I never say the real words

I just let it stay inside

We talk like everything is normal

But I feel something different

I listen to your voice

And I hold back my words

Sometimes you ask if I’m okay

I say yes, I’m okay

But I am not okay

I just don’t explain it

I look at you and smile

But I don’t say what I mean

I try to be honest

But I lose the moment

The words are in my head

But they never come out

I cannot say it to you

I keep it inside every day

I cannot tell you how I feel

So I stay quiet again

You don’t know what I think

You don’t know what I feel

I never say the real words

I just let it stay inside

I want to tell you everything

But I stop myself

I am afraid of your answer

So I say nothing

Maybe you already know

Or maybe you don’t

But I still stay silent

Every single time

I cannot say it to you

I keep it inside every day

I cannot tell you how I feel

So I stay quiet again

You don’t know what I think

You don’t know what I feel

I never say the real words

I just let it stay inside

I still don’t say it

And maybe I never will