I wake up in a room that reeks of yesterday’s regrets
The walls still echo words I never said out loud
My hands are clenched, my jaw is locked
I bite my tongue so hard it tastes like rust
I see her face and I feel the fire
But I hold it in—
Because blood is thicker than the gasoline in my veins

I count the cracks on the ceiling
Like the fractures in my mind
I hold the weight of silence
Like a loaded gun that’s never fired

[Chorus]
I got a toy gun, screaming but it won’t shoot
Pulling the trigger but the bullet’s stuck in my throat
Every word’s a loaded chamber, but I choke
I wanna let it out—
But I can’t, no I won’t

I pace around like a ghost in my own house
Counting every reason why I should let go
I replay the fights, I relive the wounds
But my hands stay cold—
Because love’s a chain I can’t undo

I count the days I’ve wasted
Swallowing my own fire
I hold my breath till I’m shaking
Like a bomb with no timer

[Chorus]
I got a toy gun, screaming but it won’t shoot
Pulling the trigger but the bullet’s stuck in my throat
Every word’s a loaded chamber, but I choke
I wanna let it out—
But I can’t, no I won’t

I see red, I taste iron
I hear echoes of a war I never started
I bite down, I hold still
I am drowning in the silence I built

[Final Chorus]
I got a toy gun, screaming but it won’t shoot
Pulled the trigger so hard, now my throat’s bruised
Every word’s a bullet but they ricochet back
Swallowed the fire ‘til my lungs turned black

I got a toy gun—jammed, rusted, useless
Screaming my lungs out but nobody hears this
Stuck in my head like a war with no end,
I pull and I pull but it clicks again

[Outro]
So I breathe in, I breathe out
Swallow every scream till I black out
And I wonder if one day
This toy gun will ever fire