I tear apart the knot of the world inside,

Sad, holding myself, crying, I confide.

Screaming without sound, silent cries,

Unraveled and lost, a broken disguise.

Why didn’t I hear your laughter at play?

Your first words or tears, taken away.

Why didn’t I meet you, my life, my dear?

For you, the universe would disappear.

I wanted to teach you to read and to write,

The world’s wonders, so wondrous and bright.

To walk, to fall, to run, to stand tall,

Little by little, bringing light through it all.

But you were so great, you couldn't come near,

Not even for a while, it wasn’t your year.

Your light stayed with God, in stars up high,

Waiting for us 'til we touch the sky.

But you were so great, you couldn't be here,

It was fate’s design, we couldn't draw near,

Teaching us life in this painful way,

Though we don't understand, we’ll learn someday.

You couldn’t hug your mother tight,

Your first school day never saw the light.

No jumping, no playing, no mud-stained pants,

You never broke a thing, not even by chance.

You never saw the beach or the woods,

No snow to touch, no sun to dance.

You never cried, didn’t drink life’s wine,

Never felt love, nor a heart to sign.

I'm sorry I couldn’t love you more,

That this life brought us pain, hard to ignore.

But I forgive you, and myself too,

I know this wasn’t our time, it’s true.

(I'm sorry) my child

I'm sorry (my dear child)

For you were so great, you couldn't come near,

Not even for a while, it wasn’t your year.

Your light stayed with God, in stars up high,

Waiting for us 'til we touch the sky.

For you were so great, you couldn’t be here,

It was fate’s design, we couldn’t draw near,

Teaching us life in this painful way,

Though we don’t understand, we’ll learn someday.