「幻想（ゆめ）に焦がれて、見失う」

"Burning for a dream, I fade away."

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Lyrics : Murasaki

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※English lyrics are listed at the bottom.

© 2025 Murasaki

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偽りのベールに　隠した痕

誰にも　見せられない未来

空気を読んで　感情を殺し

「いい子」な仮面　張りつけて

帰り道　心が痛むのは

甘えでも　ワガママでもない

笑顔の奥に　叫びをしまった

誰にも届かないサイン

明日への道も　人との距離も

全部が　脅迫みたいだった

Burn me, break me, I don’t care

何もかも　空回りして

Why can't I be enough?

誰かになろうとして

自分を殺すインフェルノ

夢なんて　嘘みたいで

明日が怖いよ

笑われないように　沈黙を選んだ

本音なんて　毒にしかならない

大人の言葉なんて　Overdose

喉の奥　ひりついてる

Can’t rewind, can’t escape

“普通”なんて幻想で

I’m not okay

でも気づかれたくなくて

自分を殺すインフェルノ

響くノイズ　止められない

どこに行けばいいの？

ほんとは　助けてって言いたかった

期待されたくなかっただけ

裏切るくらいなら　最初から……

Burn me, break me, I don’t care

もう愛されなくていい

ただ　私を許して

Not perfect, not brave

セカイを殺すインフェルノ

でも生きてる、それだけで

ねぇ　そう言えたなら…

壊れそうな願いさえ

まだ此処に　刻みつけて

痛みだけが　まだ生きてる

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《 Inferno of Searing Grief 》

( Aishou Inferno - English Ver. )

Scars hidden beneath a veil of lies—

A future I can't show to anyone.

Reading the room, I kill my feelings,

Wearing a “good girl” mask too tightly.

This ache I feel on my way home—

It’s not selfishness,

And it’s not weakness.

Behind the smile, I buried my scream,

An SOS no one could ever hear.

The road to tomorrow, the space between people—

Everything felt like a silent threat.

Burn me, break me, I don’t care.

Everything I touch just spins out of control.

Why can't I be enough?

Trying to become someone else,

I kill myself in this inferno.

Dreams feel like lies,

And tomorrow... terrifies me.

To avoid being laughed at, I chose silence.

Truth becomes poison once spoken.

The words of grown-ups—

Empty overdoses,

Scraping my throat raw.

Can’t rewind, can’t escape—

“Normal” is just a fragile illusion.

I’m not okay.

But I didn’t want anyone to notice.

So I faked strength again

In this inferno that devours me.

The noise won't stop—

Where am I supposed to go?

I really wanted to cry out for help.

But from who? For what? How?

I just didn’t want them to expect anything.

If I’d only disappoint them,

Then it’s better to—

Burn me, break me, I don’t care.

I don’t need to be loved anymore.

Just… let me forgive myself.

Not perfect, not brave—

This inferno that scorches the world,

But if I’m still alive, even like this…

Would that be enough… to breathe again?

Even this fragile wish—

I etch it here, in trembling silence.

Only pain reminds me I still exist.

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Thanks for listening! <3

by Murasaki :D