I watch them hold hands in the café light,

Soft whispers drift through the quiet night.

They make it look easy, like breathing in air,

Like love is just waiting, just standing right there.

But when someone reaches, I flinch like a ghost,

Wearing my heartbreak like armor too close.

I know it’s not fair, but I don’t know how

To let someone in without breaking down.

I wish I could fall in love,

Let somebody pull me close enough.

But I turn away when they try to stay,

Afraid of the weight, afraid of the way

That love never chose me the way I want.

I wish I could fall in love... but I don’t.

Too young, too old, too lost in my head,

Too much of a dreamer, too scared to pretend.

I tell myself stories that keep me alone,

Like I’m the stranger wherever I go.

And every “what if” is a trap in my mind,

Spinning in circles, rewinding time.

I see all the ways that it could go wrong,

Before it even has a chance to belong.

I wish I could fall in love,

Let somebody pull me close enough.

But I push away when they try to stay,

Afraid of the weight, afraid of the way

That love never chose me the way I want.

I wish I could fall in love... but I don’t.

Then I see you across the room,

And something cracks, something moves.

A voice in my head says, *just let it be,*

But another one whispers, *they’ll never want me.*

I’m fighting myself in a war I can’t win,

Reaching for hope, pulling back in.

I wish I could fall in love,

Just once, just once, be brave enough.

But I stand in the dark, where I’ve always been,

Watching the world fall in love again.

I wish I could fall in love...

But maybe, just maybe… this time I will.