(Breakcore and Rap)

Dont save me

You already watched

That was enough

I learned real early love got a exit plan

Same hands that hold you end up clenchin damn

I prayed to God but the line kept clickin dead

So I started havin conversations with my meds

Failure aint loud its a whisper that stays

Its wakin up tired before startin the day

Its seein her name and still hopin its fake

Like my phone just enjoys twistin the blade

I been a Judas to myself no silver required

Sold my future for a moment of feelin inspired

Now im crossin my veins crucifix with a scar

Tryna find God in a room where the mirrors are armed

They dont talk about the shame when the pills finally work

How the pain goes quiet but the guilt goes berserk

I aint chasin a high im chasin a pause

Just a second where my head aint at war with my heart

So leave me to bleed dont act shocked when I do

You watched me unravel and still wanted proof

If love was a lifeline you cut it for sleep

Then asked why I sank just leave me to bleed

Leave me to bleed im already there

I been dyin slow with you standin right here

If I fade out tonight dont rewrite what you see

You knew I was breakin you left me to bleed

Im Gatsby with ghosts in a house full of noise

Throwin parties for people that dont hear my voice

Green light blinkin but its always too far

Like happiness mapped me and marked where I are

I mix Bible verses with chemical faith

Like maybe Godll meet me halfway in decay

I dont wanna die I just dont wanna feel

Like im draggin a soul that refuses to heal

I been noddin off thinkin this better not be it

Heart race cold sweat hands shakin like shit

I texted her sorry with blood in my eyes

Deleted it quick im done beggin for lies

They say reach out but nobody stays

They just screenshot your pain then get bored of the page

Everybody cares till its ugly and real

Till your trauma aint trendy its heavy to feel

If im honest

I didnt need fixing

I needed someone who didnt flinch

When they seen how bad it got in my head

I aint a villain im what happens when you neglect

Someone screamin in silence what did you expect

I learned how to smile with a mouth full of knives

Tellin everyone im good just to keep em alive

Mythology said even gods sometimes fall

So what chance I got when I carry it all

Atlas with a pill bottle under his tongue

Tryna hold up the world while its comin undone

I dont want pity I dont want grace

Just dont disappear then remember my face

When you speak on my name like youre fucking confused

You helped build the wreckage dont act like youre used

So leave me to bleed you already chose

Every time you walked out somethin in me froze

If I dont wake up dont say he hid it so well

I was drownin out loud you just didnt help

Leave me to bleed yeah dont clean up the scene

Dont romanticize scars you refused to see

I wasnt a secret I wasnt discreet

I was beggin in pieces you left me to bleed

I didnt fall apart overnight

You just werent there

Long enough

To watch it finish