I Am So Fucking Lonely
Style / Sound (EN – brief) Modern alternative metal with grunge influence. Drop-tuned guitars, slow–mid tempo, heavy low end, dry aggressive drums. Verses are restrained and tense, choruses explode emotionally rather than technically. Vocals shift between quiet, cracked delivery and raw shouted lines. No polish — pain first.
I Am So Fucking Lonely
Style / Sound (EN – brief) Modern alternative metal with grunge influence. Drop-tuned guitars, slow–mid tempo, heavy low end, dry aggressive drums. Verses are restrained and tense, choruses explode emotionally rather than technically. Vocals shift between quiet, cracked delivery and raw shouted lines. No polish — pain first.
Lyrics
Intro
(quiet guitar feedback, breath)
I’m still here.
I think.
Verse 1
I wake up with the lights still off
Same four walls, same fucking thoughts
Phone is dead, but so am I
Another day I didn’t try
Everybody says “stay strong”
Like that shit ever helped anyone
I smile back, I play it cool
But inside I’m breaking rules
Pre-Chorus
I talk to mirrors
They don’t answer
I scream inside
But it sounds like cancer
Chorus
I am so fucking lonely
Even when I’m not alone
I am so fucking lonely
In a house that feels like stone
I don’t need saving
I don’t need hope
I just need someone
To fucking know
Verse 2
Friends fade out like dying stars
Everyone moves, I stay scarred
I drink at night just to sleep
To shut the fuck up what I feel too deep
I tried love, it tried me back
Left me bleeding through the cracks
If this is healing, then explain
Why silence hurts more than pain
Pre-Chorus
I scroll through lives
I’ll never live
I give too much
Got nothing left to give
Chorus
I am so fucking lonely
Even when I scream your name
I am so fucking lonely
Every face just feels the same
I don’t want heaven
I don’t want god
I just want peace
Before I rot
Bridge (half-time, heavy)
Maybe I’m broken
Maybe it’s true
Maybe I was never built
To make it through
If this is living
Then what’s the point
I’m breathing anger
Through every joint
Breakdown
( screamed )
DON’T TELL ME IT GETS BETTER
WHEN YOU DON’T FUCKING STAY
DON’T TELL ME I’M NOT TRYING
WHEN I SURVIVE EACH DAY
Final Chorus
I am so fucking lonely
But I’m still standing here
I am so fucking lonely
Yeah — but I’m fucking here
No apologies
No fake control
Just a tired heart
In a damaged soul
Outro
(quiet, distorted guitar)
I’m still here.
That has to count for something.