Yeah

Down here the walls don’t echo right

I hear the city cough above

But no one ever hears me back

Stone sweat drippin off ceiling skin

Heartbeat hummin like a violin

Got mold for roommates rats for peers

They don’t judge they just chew years

Used to knock on doors now I knock on pipes

Listen for the footsteps memorize types

Every laugh upstairs is a loaded gun

I flinch at joy then I come undone

Brain loop spinnin minute-thin linen

Tryin to breathe in rhythm air feels prison

Bit tongue-bite thought-fight plot

I rehearse hi till the mirror rot

Talk to myself in surround sound static

Panic manic semantic traffic

If quiet’s peace then I’m a priest

Sermon’s nervous faith deceased

Scroll my sins through pixel veins

No likes no gains still feed the chains

If comfort’s crime then cuff my chest

I’m safest here self arrest

Too loud too deep I don’t speak

Silence got claws that keep me weak

Sunlight leak through the sewer grate

I blink too slow miss my fate

Street beat thunder crowd pulse riot

My pulse answers can’t stay quiet

Every voice a blade every glance a sting

I wear the dirt like wedding ring

They talk above like gods in chrome

I pray below to stay unknown

Breath short thought sport score none

Tryin to win back calm lost one

Talk fast brain crash rehash the past

Mask half on when the panic blast

Dream in loops wake in loops

Truth is soup I sip in groups

Dig through doubt like fossil fuel

Every fear a different rule

Get out more they preach

But every exit’s out of reach

I measure worth by decibel

Too small for heaven too loud for hell

Every hi a trial balloon

Pop too quick retreat too soon

I built this cave from conversation

Brick by brick of hesitation

You don’t get it

The world’s a parade and I forgot the choreography

So I hide where applause can’t find me

Down here even echoes mind their manners

Scratch marks count the days I tried

Each groove a heartbeat I denied

Dreamt once of skylight glass

Woke up choking on the grass

I ain’t brave just better at small

Better at walls that never call

Panic got rhythm anxiety got rhyme

I keep time in overtime

If fear’s a god then I’m the choir

Singin hymns in razor wire

Breath quick flick like strobe light panic

Mind cinematic nerves volcanic

Clutch that thought till the edges shred

Say I’m fine that’s code for dread

Every word I twist till it sounds cursed

Honesty burns but silence worse

Maybe one day I’ll climb that grate

Meet the noise and call it fate

Till then I hum my mantra low

Hole’s my home that’s all I know

Too loud too deep I don’t speak

Silence got claws that keep me weak

Too loud too deep I don’t speak

But maybe one day I peek

Too loud too deep I don’t speak

Silence got claws that keep me weak

Too loud too deep I don’t speak

But maybe one day I peek