『毒でしか息ができない』
Genre: Dark Pop × Hyperpop × Rock BPM: 125 Mood: Fierce, emotional, rebellious, modern Instruments: Distorted bass, sharp electronic drums, glitchy synths, edgy guitar riffs, dramatic build-ups Arrangement: Fast and punchy verses with rhythmic vocals Explosive chorus with layered harmonies and distorted beats Short atmospheric bridge before the final drop Style Note: Catchy and chaotic, but emotional underneath — a danceable rebellion. Voice: Powerful female tone, expressive and dynamic Style: Mix of singing and spoken rhythm, sharp articulation, confident attitude Emotion: Anger, irony, self-acceptance — a mix of pain and pride Delivery: Playful but biting phrasing on verses Soaring emotional tone on choruses Slight breathiness and growl on key words like “毒”, “息”, “正しさ” Ad-libs: Whispered “ねぇ” or sighs between phrases for intimacy
『毒でしか息ができない』
Genre: Dark Pop × Hyperpop × Rock BPM: 125 Mood: Fierce, emotional, rebellious, modern Instruments: Distorted bass, sharp electronic drums, glitchy synths, edgy guitar riffs, dramatic build-ups Arrangement: Fast and punchy verses with rhythmic vocals Explosive chorus with layered harmonies and distorted beats Short atmospheric bridge before the final drop Style Note: Catchy and chaotic, but emotional underneath — a danceable rebellion. Voice: Powerful female tone, expressive and dynamic Style: Mix of singing and spoken rhythm, sharp articulation, confident attitude Emotion: Anger, irony, self-acceptance — a mix of pain and pride Delivery: Playful but biting phrasing on verses Soaring emotional tone on choruses Slight breathiness and growl on key words like “毒”, “息”, “正しさ” Ad-libs: Whispered “ねぇ” or sighs between phrases for intimacy
Lyrics
『毒でしか息ができない』
Intro
ねぇ 誰が決めたの？
正しい顔で笑えってルール
Verse 1
善人ぶった画面の中で
笑うほど 息が詰まる
可愛いねって言葉すらも
毒みたいで 甘すぎるの
Pre-Chorus
ねぇ 正しさって 何味なの？
飲み干したら 消えちゃいそうで
私のことを壊す前に
どうか 少しだけ見逃して
Chorus
嗚呼 毒でしか息ができない
嘘混じりの酸素が好き
綺麗ごとで飾るより
痛いくらいリアルでいたい
嗚呼 正義の仮面はいらない
笑われても構わない
私の呼吸は 嘘より深い
毒でしか息ができない
Verse 2
心配してるふりの通知
既読スルーで刺さるナイフ
「大丈夫？」って言葉の奥
ほんとはちょっと楽しいくせに
Pre-Chorus
正解探して擦り切れて
自分の声も忘れそうで
だから歌うの 苦いメロディ
これが私の“正常値”
Chorus
嗚呼 毒でしか息ができない
優しさの仮装はもういい
誰かの正義に縛られて
呼吸するほど苦しくなる
嗚呼 愛されたいわけじゃない
認められたいわけでもない
ただこの胸が 止まらないように
毒を吸って生きてたい
Bridge
ねぇ 光って痛いね
綺麗なだけじゃ壊れちゃうね
悪くていい 歪んでいい
私が私でいるための毒
Final Chorus
嗚呼 毒でしか息ができない
正しさじゃ生きられない
偽善の空気が澄んでても
私は濁ったままでいい
嗚呼 綺麗な悪にはなれない
でも汚れた愛を抱きしめたい
それが生きてる証なら
毒でしか息ができない
Outro
ねぇ それでもいいでしょ
これが私の呼吸法
Toxic Breath
(English Translation of “毒でしか息ができない”)
Intro
Hey, who decided that?
The rule that says we must smile the “right” way?
Verse 1
In a screen full of saints pretending,
The more I laugh, the less I can breathe.
Even the word “cute” tastes like poison—
Too sweet, too fake for me.
Pre-Chorus
Tell me, what flavor is “righteousness”?
If I drink it all, will I disappear?
Before it breaks what’s left of me,
Please… just look away for a while.
Chorus
Ah, I can only breathe in poison.
I’m addicted to oxygen laced with lies.
Rather than dressing up in purity,
I’d rather feel the pain of being real.
Ah, I don’t need a mask of justice.
Laugh at me, I don’t mind.
My breath runs deeper than deceit—
I can only breathe in poison.
Verse 2
“Are you okay?”—the sweetest knife,
Hidden behind your caring tone.
Those fake concerns in my DMs,
You love it when I bleed, don’t you?
Pre-Chorus
Worn out from chasing the “right” answers,
I almost forget the sound of my own voice.
So I’ll sing this bitter melody—
This is my “normal range.”
Chorus
Ah, I can only breathe in poison.
No more costumes of kindness, please.
Tied down by someone’s justice,
Every breath just hurts more.
Ah, it’s not love I’m asking for,
Nor recognition or praise.
Just let my heart keep beating,
Let me live by breathing in poison.
Bridge
Hey, light burns, doesn’t it?
Pretty things break so easily.
It’s fine to be wrong, fine to be warped—
Poison is what keeps me, me.
Final Chorus
Ah, I can only breathe in poison.
I can’t survive on righteousness.
Even if the air of hypocrisy is pure,
I’d rather stay clouded inside.
Ah, I can’t be a beautiful villain,
But I can love with all my dirt.
If that’s proof I’m alive,
Then let me breathe in poison.
Outro
Hey, is that okay with you?
This is just my way to breathe.