I was nine when everything split in two

No one explained, just told me where to go

Different doors, none of them felt like home

And I think that’s when I started to roam

New school and a quieter me

Everybody talking, but not to me

Tried to blend in, but it all went wrong

Got pushed around like I don’t belong

Home didn’t feel like somewhere safe

Blame came easy, no matter the case

Some nights left bruises I tried to hide

So I learned to keep it all inside

Every word I said got turned around

Somehow it was always my fault

Even when I didn’t do a thing

I carried blame for everything

I was just a kid, I didn’t belong

Always felt like something was wrong

So I walked those streets with nowhere to go

Just trying to find some space to breathe

Every night I stayed out way too long

Didn’t feel right going back home

If love was there, it stayed out of reach

Like something no one gave to me

Moved again, thought this time might work

Different place, but I felt the same

Hoping things would finally change

But I still felt out of place

New school, same old me

People still not talking to me

Kept my distance, stayed alone

Like I didn’t belong anywhere I'd go

Stayed in my room, didn’t go outside

Started skipping school, a part of me died

He didn’t get me, I could see it in his face

Like he was slowly losing faith

Therapy rooms, staring at the floor

Trying to explain what I felt before

But how do you say you’re already lost

When you’re still that young, paying that cost?

I was just a kid, I didn’t belong

Always felt like something was wrong

So I stayed out late with nowhere to be

Just trying to find some space to breathe

Every night I stayed out way too long

Couldn’t bring myself to go back home

If love was there, it stayed out of reach

Like something no one gave to me

Heard things I wish I never knew

Like being somewhere else was better for you

It never happened, but it didn’t have to

Just knowing that was enough to break me

Stayed out late, just to avoid

Every place I once called home

No direction, nowhere to be

Just trying to feel something in me

What kind of parent stops wanting you?

I was just a kid, I didn’t belong

Always felt like something was wrong

Spent all those nights with nowhere to be

Just trying to find some space to breathe

Too young to carry all that weight

Too small to fight, too hurt to stay

And it stayed with me all this time

Like I wasn’t who they wanted me to be

Every night I stayed out way too long

Never felt right going back home

If love was there, it stayed out of reach

Like something never meant for me

But I’m still here in spite of everything

I made it past what I thought I wouldn’t

Still not where I thought I’d be

But I’m still here…