I want it all,

But I don't wanna improve,

I am stuck in place,

But I always need some proof,

Proof that I failed,

I am surprised that I am not in jail.

I seem to lack the ability,

To take responsibility,

To take accountability,

For all that I've done.

I am growing fatter by the day,

And with every year I am farther away,

But all I ever wanted to do,

Is to be with you,

Is to be with you.

I forgot to shower since Thursday of last week,

But my love when I see you my knees feel weak.

I would call you over but my room is a mess,

And I think I would be lying if I said that I am doing my best.

I am growing fatter by the day,

And with every year I am farther away,

But all I ever wanted to do,

Is to be with you,

Is to be with you.

You might think I am selfish,

You might think I am gross,

Maybe I am just lazy,

But it's you I want the most.

How can I even justify my feelings,

If all I do in life is just stare at the ceiling?

Do I blame my parents?

Do I blame my past?

Even if we did work out,

Not sure we would last.

Maybe I just need to go outside,

And finally touch grass,

But that won't bring you to me,

Oh my love, alas,

Oh my love, alas.

I am growing fatter by the day,

And with every year I am farther away,

But all I ever wanted to do,

Is to be with you,

Is to be with you.