It’s kinda wild how lonely I am

Pushing, shoving everybody back with my hand

(Pushing, pushing, pushing them away — yeah)

Smile on my face that doesn’t stay for long

Feels like I’m laughing just to play along (uh-huh)

Walls so high I keep the world out of sight

Keeping out the day, blocking out the night

(Pushing, pushing my emotions down — yeah)

Grinning through the cracks, trying not to drown (uh)

I am so (so), very, very (very, very)

Fucking sad, disconnected from it all

Reaching out (out), but the silence buries

Every word I speak just hits the same cold wall (yeah, yeah)

Wish I could flip this frown upside down

Back when I ruled as the class clown

(Laughing, laughing, hiding my pain — yeah)

Now each moment makes me pull back again

Feels like I’m too broken to let anyone in (uh)

Every step I take just wears me out

Keeping love out, slamming the door

(Pushing, pushing my emotions down — yeah)

Grinning at the world, feeling it all pull me down (uh-huh)

I am so (so), very, very (very, very)

Fucking sad, disconnected from it all

Reaching out (out), but the silence buries

Every word I speak just hits the same cold wall (yeah)

Maybe one day I’ll shatter this spell

Escape the grip of my private hell

But right now I’m trapped, can’t move along

Feels like everything I knew is already gone (gone)

I am so (so), very, very (very, very)

Fucking sad, disconnected from it all

Trying to hold on, but my grip feels weak

Feels like it’s slipping away, sliding through my hands (oh-oh, yeah)

But this storm won’t last forever

(Ooh… yeah… I’ll breathe again…)