Not Your Clown (Remaster)
126 BPM, F minor — Dark Theatrical Electro-Rock × Industrial Pop Fusion. Groove: hybrid drum kit — tight electronic snare with metallic tail, heavy toms layered with acoustic impacts, syncopated kick pulse; Bass: distorted synth-bass growl side-chained to kick; Guitars: overdriven rhythm riffs with mechanical chugs; Keys: detuned synth pads + haunting piano motifs; FX: glitch risers, reversed breaths, distorted crowd laughter, tape-stop screams. Vox: deep male voice with breathy verses, screamed chorus, no rap, full emotional rage. Tone: betrayal, awakening, defiance.
Not Your Clown (Remaster)
126 BPM, F minor — Dark Theatrical Electro-Rock × Industrial Pop Fusion. Groove: hybrid drum kit — tight electronic snare with metallic tail, heavy toms layered with acoustic impacts, syncopated kick pulse; Bass: distorted synth-bass growl side-chained to kick; Guitars: overdriven rhythm riffs with mechanical chugs; Keys: detuned synth pads + haunting piano motifs; FX: glitch risers, reversed breaths, distorted crowd laughter, tape-stop screams. Vox: deep male voice with breathy verses, screamed chorus, no rap, full emotional rage. Tone: betrayal, awakening, defiance.
Lyrics
They laugh — I laugh louder
Slipped on pride to please the crowd
Danced like fire — called it power
Wore their praise like a shroud
Thought I mattered when they smiled
Cracked my soul to play their game
Played the fool — played it wild
Never asked — they knew my name
Their cheers were knives — I didn’t bleed
Their love? A leash I couldn’t see
I lived for claps, for wicked glee
I was the joke — and didn’t see
But silence hits different when you know
What their eyes hide — what their whispers show
Every smile — fake
Every cheer — bait
And I swallowed every line they fed
I’M NOT YOUR CLOWN!
YOU DON’T GET TO SMILE!
YOU DON’T GET TO ASK!
DON’T EVEN DIAL!
YOU USED MY HEART LIKE A DAMN STAGE PROP
NOW WATCH ME RISE — WATCH IT ALL STOP
FUCK YOUR LAUGHS
FUCK YOUR LIES
I BURNED YOUR NAMES
AND CUT YOUR TIES
You called me bright — while breaking me
You called me gold — while draining me
But I see now — and I choose me
Not your pity — not your plea
WAS NEVER LOVE
WAS JUST CONTROL
WAS NEVER FRIENDS
JUST SWALLOW WHOLE
I’M NOT YOUR CLOWN
NOT YOUR TOY
I’M NOT YOUR GUILT
I’M NOT YOUR BOY