It's been heavy on my mind contently thinking, want to start drinking... to numb the pain.

wrote several texts that you would never read, never receive.

My mind slurring thoughts around, my sober heart breaking through the seems.

sticking together with glue, my souls to raw to touch getting use to this feeling..

the alcohol drowns out any sound or feeling of love, to feel anything at this point is impossible, useless to try. loving me was not hard but for you effort was. You're toxic.

you never loved me but I adored you, dearly. maybe we just met at the wrong time, or maybe we will be right for each other in another lifetime. the feeling of my soul recognizing yours, doesn't make it easier to not have you around. But I will forever be in love with you, sometimes it's just best to love you from a distance.