[Intro – phone static / rain / tired breathing]
…i don’t even know who i am anymore…
…fuck…

[Verse 1 – soft melodic rap]
3 AM and I’m still awake
Overthinking every mistake
Everybody says “you’ll heal someday”
But my heart still aches the same

I keep fake smiles on my face
Just so nobody worries again
Then go home and emotionally collapse
The second I’m alone with my head

I still reread old messages
Like somehow they can resurrect
The version of me that believed
Maybe I deserved love back then

[Pre-Chorus – airy / emotional rise]
I want somebody close
But closeness scares me to death
Cause every time I trust somebody
I lose another piece that’s left

[Chorus – melodic hook → heavy drop]
Fuck…
I’m breaking down again
Fuck…
Don’t know where I end

Every night my chest caves in
Thoughts too loud beneath my skin
You try to save me from myself
But I’m too fucked up to let you in

[Verse 2 – trap flow / unstable emotion]
Late nights with the speakers loud
Trying to drown these demons out
But every song just sounds like me
Falling apart emotionally now

I sabotage the ones I love
Before they leave like everyone does
Then sit alone and hate myself
For never feeling good enough

You ask me why I disappear
Cause love and fear feel way too near
I wanna be held more than anything
But I still freeze when someone’s here

[Bridge – stripped / raw confession]
I don’t hate you
I hate what sadness made me into
A soul terrified of loneliness
But addicted to isolation too

If you saw every hidden scar
Every sleepless night in the dark
You’d understand why I self-destruct
When people get close to my heart

[Breakdown – trap metal / distorted screams]
FUCK—FUCK—
I CAN’T ESCAPE MY HEAD NOW
FUCK—FUCK—
I’M FALLING APART NOW
NUMB HEART / DEAD EYES / NO SLEEP
TRYNA FIND LOVE BUT IT NEVER FINDS ME

[Final Chorus – cinematic / huge harmonies]
Fuck…
I’m falling through myself again
Fuck…
Don’t know who I’ve been

Every time you say my name
I feel my whole world cave in
I wanna be enough for somebody
But I don’t think I ever been

[Outro – fading heartbeat / static cutting out]
…fuck…
…still awake…
…still hurting…**