I lined my memories up on the wall
They’re begging me to let them go
There’s a night I try not to recall
On the floor, folded like laundry oh
Yeah baby I can't even cry
Blood and bleach in the air
Once I was yours, Yeah I was yours
Now I'm left standing here

I keep my voice down
Though you aren't even here
No I don’t even say your name
Cause baby you won't hear

I hit that dead end again
Thinking I could go back
Oh your goodbyes change into things
I don’t know how to unpack
Baby I can still pretend
That I know what I need
But I keep driving to that dead end
Like it might go somewhere for me

I’m a wilderness I didn’t choose
Trees shaking in the cold
Candle stubs, heart still bruised
All that proof I get to hold
Your words lay low in the grass
So soft until they cut
That last fight still hangs in the past
But it's a thought I can’t give up

You know my hands shake
Over nothing at all
Every quiet moment
Feels like a fall

I hit that dead end again
Oh I swore I learned the route
I keep thinking of you gone
Still can’t find my way through
I think about what was
Oh baby I try to let you go
but I keep driving to that dead end
Like I don’t already know

I turned our last time into a holiday
I try to make the memory survive
Cake on a plate, wine and candles
It was too sweet to stay alive
No I can't leave this thing
Like it’s easy to forget
I drink it down and still I see
All those things we never said

The snowbirds came back again
Three notes in the air
One for the blade
One for me
One for what’s no longer there
I hit that dead end and stop at last
Turn off the engine and breathe
Some things don’t fade, they just lie flat
Baby it's time to kill this dream

Yeah I know
Oh baby I know

I know



But I keep driving to that dead end
Like it might go somewhere for me