I lined my memories up on the wall

They’re begging me to let them go

There’s a night I try not to recall

On the floor, folded like laundry oh

Yeah baby I can't even cry

Blood and bleach in the air

Once I was yours, Yeah I was yours

Now I'm left standing here

I keep my voice down

Though you aren't even here

No I don’t even say your name

Cause baby you won't hear

I hit that dead end again

Thinking I could go back

Oh your goodbyes change into things

I don’t know how to unpack

Baby I can still pretend

That I know what I need

But I keep driving to that dead end

Like it might go somewhere for me

I’m a wilderness I didn’t choose

Trees shaking in the cold

Candle stubs, heart still bruised

All that proof I get to hold

Your words lay low in the grass

So soft until they cut

That last fight still hangs in the past

But it's a thought I can’t give up

You know my hands shake

Over nothing at all

Every quiet moment

Feels like a fall

I hit that dead end again

Oh I swore I learned the route

I keep thinking of you gone

Still can’t find my way through

I think about what was

Oh baby I try to let you go

but I keep driving to that dead end

Like I don’t already know

I turned our last time into a holiday

I try to make the memory survive

Cake on a plate, wine and candles

It was too sweet to stay alive

No I can't leave this thing

Like it’s easy to forget

I drink it down and still I see

All those things we never said

The snowbirds came back again

Three notes in the air

One for the blade

One for me

One for what’s no longer there

I hit that dead end and stop at last

Turn off the engine and breathe

Some things don’t fade, they just lie flat

Baby it's time to kill this dream

Yeah I know

Oh baby I know

I know

But I keep driving to that dead end

Like it might go somewhere for me