Mmm… I can’t quite catch my breath tonight.

It’s just that heavy kind of dark that presses on the soul.

This room is not quiet; it’s empty, and that’s far worse.

Do you remember,

The nights that stretched into a hazy memory?

We’d fade into the dark, under that silent moon.

I swore I loved you; said it over and over, you could hear the tremor in my voice.

You said it too… you repeated the words like a rhyme you’d memorized.

But you never meant them, did you, my sweet illusion?

And the silence now is deafening, like a promise broken at the moment of truth.

I didn’t lose you, my dear, I lost the years I thought we spent building a sanctuary.

Was it all a lie, then? A well-crafted ghost story I wrote for myself?

Or am I losing the thread of reality, the only plot I ever believed?

Did I fall in love with a reflection, a beautiful stranger I simply invented?

I don’t know what’s worse: losing you, or the realization that I lost all my warning signs.

I used to love you so completely, I was reckless with my faith…

Now I just know I was the architect of my own heartbreak.

All that we had

Was never true, it was just a temporary kindness.

I lost myself,

Gave away my light, just loving you.

I gave you everything, every breath, every undisclosed secret of my heart.

You took it all, left me here in this unbearable quiet.

I thought you were the only truth I needed, the missing piece to my history.

Maybe you were; the final, agonizing lesson I had to learn alone.

’Cause you’re gone now, and the concept of ‘us’ is gone too.

And the silence now is deafening, like a promise broken at the moment of truth.

I didn’t lose you, my dear, I lost the years I thought we spent building a sanctuary.

It was all a lie, wasn’t it? A game of pretend you played so well.

And I finally see now, that the person I adored was just an empty spell.

I didn’t fall for a phantom; I fell for the narrative you sold me.

Now I know what’s worse: it’s not the leaving, it’s the fact that you never truly knew me.

I used to love you, but that girl is locked up now and she won’t be seen again.

And all I know is you are the villain in this version of the end.

There’s a cruel, endless tape loop playing in my head:

It’s the sound of your laugh, mixed with the quiet words you never said.

I keep going back to the moment before the fall, searching for the crack,

But maybe the crack was always there, and I was just too blind to look back.

Now the echo of your absence is louder than any promise you ever made.

All that we had

Was never true, it was just a temporary kindness.

I lost myself,

Gave away my light, just loving you.

All that we had… felt real enough to break me…

I lost myself…

And I’m still waiting for the day your ghost stops walking through these rooms.

Loving you was the biggest debt I never knew I was signing for