(Verse 1)
Engine’s running, heater’s choking,
winter air hits like a fucking slap.
You ask me what I’m thinking—
but if I say it, I’ll fall apart fast.
So I shove my hands in my pockets,
holding myself so I don’t reach for you.

(Pre-Chorus)
Don’t look at me like that.
Your tenderness fucks me up tonight.
If you touch my hand right now,
I’ll forget who I’m trying to be.
I’m not being cool—
I’m just trying not to drown.

(Chorus)
I have to be cold,
‘cause if I’m warm, I’ll cling to you like a mess.
I’ll lose my shit in your arms,
drop every bit of pride I’ve kept.
So I freeze on purpose—
don’t melt me down.
I’m scared of needing you
more than anything else.

(Verse 2)
I text you back late on purpose,
trying not to look fucking desperate.
If I get used to all your softness,
what do I do when you take it back?
So I say “I’m tired, I’m leaving,”
pretend I don’t care—
while the lie burns in my mouth.

(Bridge)
Truth is, right now,
I wanna run straight into your arms
and not move a fucking inch.
Tell you I’m scared of everything—
but we’re adults, right?
Showing every raw piece of myself
feels like suicide.
So I push you away
thinking I’m protecting us.
Makes no fucking sense, I know.

(Chorus)
I have to be cold,
‘cause if I soften, I’ll cling to you.
I’ll break apart on your chest,
beg you to stay like a fool.
So I freeze on purpose—
don’t warm me up.
I’m terrified of heat,
I’m terrified of you.

(Outro)
Cold air’s easier—
I can hide in it.
Don’t ask me to stay,
or I’ll fucking fold into you
before I can stop myself.
Just drive away.
Leave me in the cold.