They say: you look so good today,

But they don’t know the price I pay.

There’s a war inside my mind,

I smile, but I’m running out of time.

My body freezes, I lose control,

I try to stand but I lose my hold.

Not a choice, not a lie,

This is my truth, no matter why.

Pre-Chorus

I scream without a sound,

I fall without the ground.

This is not pretend,

This is where I bend.

Chorus

You don’t see it, but it’s real,

I carry storms I cannot heal.

My body speaks what I can’t say,

PNEA is here to stay.

Not a game, not a lie,

This is my brain learning to survive.

Verse 2

I’m finding pieces of my light,

Between the dark, between the fight.

I rise again, though I still fall,

I’m more than this, I’m not that small.

They say: just change your mind,

But this is not that kind of fight.

Still I breathe, day by day,

I’m still here — I found my way.

Pre-Chorus 2

I am not wrong,

I am not weak,

I am a soul

Still learning to speak.

Chorus

You don’t see it, but it’s real,

I carry storms I cannot heal.

My body speaks what I can’t say,

PNEA is here to stay.

Not a game, not a lie,

This is my brain learning to survive.

Bridge

One day my mind will rest again,

A quiet place without this pain.

Until that day, I hold my flame,

I am still here, I’m not ashamed.

Final Chorus

You don’t see it, but I live,

I fight with all I have to give.

I’m still here, I still stand,

PNEA is part of me, not who I am.

I am more than what breaks me down,

I am hope that makes no sound.